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Some day my prince will come

Some day we'll meet again

And away to his castle we'll go

To be happy forever I know

Some day my prince will come

Some day I'll find my love

And how thrilling that moment will be

When the prince of my dreams comes to me

`` its my lifee. [#] `-

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

heys yo,

its been hell of a long time since i posted.. does anyone still visit, i wonder.

[x] missingg ya loadds honeyy ((://*
1:57 PM

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Monday, February 04, 2008

third febuary two thousand eight, 03:16am.

i'll never forget this date, ever.

[x] missingg ya loadds honeyy ((://*
9:13 AM

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Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Yesterday was a particularly heart-wrenching night.

Yesterday, only yesterday, had I realized that I was the reason why he took up THREE jobs. On top of his schooling.

He wanted to give me a surprise, and surprises cost money. He was tired, but he persisted in the jobs, because he knew what I wanted & he wanted to make the three occasions memorable. (valentine’s day, our 4th anniversary & my 21st birthday)

After a series of things not going well for him, I guess disappointment & fatigue set in. Lack of sleep too. And then yesterday we were out with his friends, 2 other couples and some others. Both were very lovey-dovey, hand-holding & hugging and kissing.

But not us. Was feeling pretty mad at him cos he didn’t even show any sign of affection at all. Didn’t even bother to hold my hand. Some friend even mistook me as the girlfriend of another guy. Holy crap. Yes, the situation was that bad. And did I mention that he spoke to the others much more than he spoke to me? He kept saying he was too tired to hold my hand, and to talk. Yet he can chat with others. Very de buaysong lors.

Left the bunch & quarreled. Said he was very tired, buried his head in his arms. Was damn damn pissed. I mean, the situation was so bad his frens asked if we were alright. Couldn’t he have just held my hand at least to pacify the curious audience. Even they could tell that trouble was brewing lor. Started to gan him abt his cold behaviour towards me.. was he afraid to hold my hand or something? Or we just didn’t share what we used to have anymore?

He remain montionless, not uttering a word, head still cradled in his arms. Hey, are you listening to me?! I cried out loud, not caring abt the curious glances shot in our direction. “Not listening”, he grunted, “im sleeping.”

I broke down. Here I was, telling him how I felt and hoping we could discuss and settle things for the better, and he didn’t even give a hoot abt how I felt and could actually sleep. I honestly felt that at the moment, nothing I do or say would matter to him anymore. I couldn’t even warrant a 5-second attention span frm him, all he did was to bury his head in his arms and sleep sleep sleep. I honestly felt that he didn’t care abt me anymore.

“Fine, since you don’t even care about me anymore, let’s break up.” There, I did it. I spoke the unthinkable.

He lifted his head, his eyes still closed, a tear slowly trickling down his cheek. Then the emotional flood came. He finally broke the silence and told me abt all the difficulties that he was facing.

When he was done, there was a dull ache in my heart. “Why didn’t you tell me all these earlier? I didn’t know u were facing all these..”

“Cos I didn’t want you to worry about me.”

You can imagine how much I cried that night.

[x] missingg ya loadds honeyy ((://*
6:05 PM

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

14 dec fri - on leave. go CMPB settle dear's enlistment stuff den go koon... very tired..

15 dec sat - had an interview with a cheekopek.. wahlao.. potential boss cheeko.. cannot imagine.. offered $1800 per mth.. tot abt it but decided to reject.. den evening went to Richard's house for steamboat gathering..

16 dec sun - out with yp to "zeng" his car.. whaha.. i get to choose the compartments! nxt month gonna put those blue blue lights le.. keke.. turn his car into bengster car.. c la, side effect of hanging out w me.. now those NB KP words all come out liao... kinda miss those chao liann days.. keke.. after that went Cafe Cartel.. had Chef's Salad & Ribs! YUM!! =D

17 dec mon - Eugene jio me go out have dinner w him at Buddy Hoagies.. had chicken bolognase..

18 dec tue - go dearr's house slack.. tickle time!!! kekeke - evil grin-

19 dec wed - cineleisure with dearr... go collect his fren give us de movie tickets to Premiere of National Treasure 2!! hee.. going to watch on fri.. stayed over..

20 dec thur PH - pei dearr until 4pm den go home.. he send me back halfway to AMK.. cos he gonna b late for work liao.. den abt 11pm met yp for a while so he said "we need to talk".. dotts..

21 dec fri - OLD WOMAN & BOSS NOT IN!!!!! National Treasure 2 after work, at cineleisure!! =) dunno if staying over or not..

22 dec sat - OLD WOMAN & BOSS NOT IN!!! dunno if wan go work or not.. evening meeting yp for dinner..

23 dec sun - whole day out with my family to watch WARLORDS at amk hub!! hahaha.. whole family outing.. long time dun haf le.. shld b quite fun.. =D somemore i nv go amk hub watch movie b4.. after that at night meet eugene hav christmas dinner at Buddy Hoagies

24 dec mon - OLD WOMAN N BOSS NOT IN!!! LAST DAY TO ENJOY>>> working till 4pm. Big Boss treating us to christmas lunch. Evening will be at honeyy's work de christmas bash! Honeyy is one of the organising committee.. think he should be there earlier ba.. i'll be joing him after work. have to rmb to bring along a present..

25 dec tue - tentatively having christmas gathering with sec sch darlinggss..

[x] missingg ya loadds honeyy ((://*
7:13 PM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

Saturday, December 01, 2007

watched a movie with Eugene yesterday as i was feeling terribly guilty for rejecting his dates for so many times (i think add up got 50 times total..).

said he got something he wished to tell me verbally instead of using sms.

hmm? -raises eyebrow-

...actually all these while, I have been giving you hints here and there.. not sure if you realised it.. I'm a little uptight and upset with you for 'pushing' me away to Girl A & Girl B back then cos all these while I have feelings for you.. Just dont know why you push me to other people. I guess you will be feeling very confused now. I'll give you some time to think about this. Once you have the answer and have decided whether you want to be with me, let me know..

Damn. Tio again.

Just imagine, this ex-colleague, whom I have been treating as a good friend, has been telling for a bloody 4 whole months that he is into another ex-colleague of ours, and for 4 bloody months he has been seeking me for advice on how to win the girl's heart, which I readily helped.

4 months later he breaks this horrifying news to me, and does exactly what i advised--to yours truly.

Damn.

I am bloody angry.. it was kind intention on my part to matchmake the both of them together, that's why i didn't mind dishing out suggestions. Little did i know who the end receiver of this surprise would be.

Argh. Just a bloody waste of my time & effort.

He could have been more frank at the beginning. Then this whole long cumbersome thing would't even have started. Wahlao i treat him as friend, trusted him when he said he liked that girl, in the end turn out to be like that. Means he is indirectly lying to me lor. kaoz.

and, if you think that surprise worked for me just because i provided the suggestions, think again.

[x] missingg ya loadds honeyy ((://*
11:34 PM

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Sunday, November 25, 2007

time flies.

it has been nearly 4 years since we met.

it is incredible, isn't it? i live in the north while u live in east.. isn't it amazing that we actually met in the west?

bukit panjang.. i'll never forget the place.. it is where u teased me mercilessly.. chased me around with the fake snowflakes.. refilled the icy cold water for me when everyone had to drink bland tap water.. taught me how to tie the special knot.. taught me how to play the remote controlled car.. u teasing me when i bought the bag.. u treating me to bread as a form of apologising. every salesperson knew we were quarrelling, cos we were on cold war with each other.. the sales floor has never been this quiet! lol.

last day of the sales, just when i tot we will never meet again, he asked for my number. chatted with me abt your past.. learn tabt your school background.. just when i tot i had gotten to know u better, u told me u r helping your fren look for gf, so u will b passing my number to him. disappointed...

your fren sms-ing me in bus beside you, and it's driving you insanely jealous & u dunno why. that night u called me, and we chatted for hours. subsequently every night we started chatting. incidentally found out that we will be working in same area again, this time at westmall.

arranged to meetup for breakfast. i was late, as usual. didnt know u would be early. too late for breakfast. but we reached westmall 10min earlier. first kiss. racing hearts.

u requested for a breakup. found out that you actually broke up with your gf to be with me. u were reprimanded by your buddies on how irresponsible u were, leaving a girl for another. saw your msg for a breakup when i was working in hougang mall. numb for the whole day. i can only ren.

didnt contact you since. until a week before valentine's day, received a msg from you.. "..i don't know how to love you.. but i cant forget you. you are my only true love.. " (and other juicy bits which i deem too juicy for this post, lol)

and now.. counting back.. that's nearly 3years 9months of being together with you..

so many ups and downs...

so many heartbreaks..

and amazingly, we are still together.

i guess... i guess i really do love you. and i know you do too.

cos my heart still skips a beat whenever we kiss. not as much as when we first stated, but i know the spark is still there.

You're Still The One - Shania Twain

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong (You're still the one)

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

i guess.. i really do love you.

[x] missingg ya loadds honeyy ((://*
7:48 AM

angeliciouss `- //* 0=)

he drove me up to Mount Faber, to witness the beautiful night scenery.

presented me three roses, two beautiful baby pink roses and one white, and told me the meaning of giving three roses.

presented me with a single stalk of budding pink rose, which signifies One & Only, he emphasised.

just because i mentioned that i loved receiving flowers.

hand-delivered a cd which he made for me. compilation of our photos.

delivered a bouquet of 12 red roses to my office.

brought me to Dempsey to dine (oh gosh three figure bill)

and bought me my fave soft-toy cartoon character.

i know you have done a lot for me...

but i have told you before...

i cannot love you...

no matter how many times you propose..

i cannot accept you...

because i am ATTACHED....

please..

dont force me anymore...

please..............

[x] missingg ya loadds honeyy ((://*
7:27 AM

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Saturday, September 08, 2007

hit by viral infection. slept for only 2 hrs last night. there goes my weekend. 2 out of Cloud5 hit. The rest, pls take good care of yourselves.

[x] missingg ya loadds honeyy ((://*
8:00 AM

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