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4:14 AM
Thursday, February 08, 2007
i just wanna cry, over and over again.
the tears just cant stop.
why? why does it have to be like this? why do i always have to see from your point of view? why dont you try looking frm MINE instead? why why why. frm the very start u alr condamn everything i say. i know its bad to sum it all in one sweeping statement like this, but pls, do try to understand k? and, i made a surprise discovery today. i didnt know you had an issue with me too. like wahlao la. u asked me aqbt my troubles, den u nv tell me u had an issue with me until today. hais. and you, thanks for vouching for me, cos i think u r like the only one who truly knows the effort i put in. cos probably we're like the only ones who always work through the night, BURNT OUT the midnight and early morning oil. hais. i dunno why is all these happening la. like, i really tried my best liao, i really dont know why. i still think that it all boils down to our previous projs. as in, u didnt have faith in me n her alr, so no matter what we say oso no use what, cos u can only identify with her and her. really no point in saying anything liao lor. as in, if u got an issue with us, u can mention it to us, but pls do not carry forward all these emotional baggage through all the subsequent projects. this way, no matter what we contribute, is of no use. and u know what? i think u associate questions with inability to understand, which is not the case here. cos we r juz asking to clarify. u feel that the both of them know what u r toking abt simply becis they nv ask any qn! hais. do u then think that this is a fair basis to judge. i mean, i can simply zone out and "orh ok ok" to u and u will be superbly satisfied that i 'understood' what u were saying, juz cos i didnt ask u any qn? qns mean that we r processing n thinking. den, juz cos we ask qns, we r penalised with our asking, and u brand us as 'do not understand what u r saying'. now, i ask again, do u think this is a fair gauge? and one more thing, u all r like, wah, she v hardworking leh, she send this at 4am. but have u all thought of it another way, that is that i have worked throughout the nite, way past 4am, for our proj? well, nobody sees it lor. its not like im expecting praise or recognition or anything lor, its juz that, wah, after putting in my share of effort for the project, i get penalised for not doing anything. im like, huh? den all those nights that i go w/o slp is nothing ah? tell me earlier la, den i try so hard for what. after all sleep or not oso equate to nothing, den i bia so hard for what?? hais. i really dunno what to say lor. hais. and let me mention agn, im in charge of marketing, which means the price, place and promotion. and in addition, i helped to contribute to major competitors altho its not my part. i know it may not sound like much lar, but i DID my part+ help out with another topic. i dunno wy u all think competitors and mkt analysis is mine lor. but anyw, i did all these, den i kana aimed for not doing anything. of cos in the end i machiam like nv do anything lar! cos my mktg plan was changed what. hais. u all wanna change my hard work, i nothing to say liao lor, but the fact is that i DID my part, which means that i had fulfilled my duty, and i really see no reason why u wanna penalise me for it. its like u hav an issue with us, den u complain n complain to her and her, thinking that the both of them will come tell us, but no lor, they dun wanna get involved. then how? u think that they're alr telling us abt all these complaints, when actually we have heard nothing of it. so of cos we dun change to improve la, cos we dunno mah. den u suddenly say wanna penalise us, i v sad leh, do u know? all these effort, hais, like cannot be seen by every1 except her. lucky she vouch for me can? else ah.. hais... i really think i'll be in hot soup this time. why, i look like im slacking meh? the changing of the marketing part is not i want de lor, and the reason why i wanna go home that day when u all were at the lab doing the proj is cos i really buay tahan liao, cos i spent the nights doing mktg thing mah. den u , u say dun force dun force, juz try ur best, go slp liao den wake up early to continue, den u blame us why the thing last min. so inconsistant, den what shld i do? u said, no need to worry abt poe, juz do ib. i asked, then what abt all my parts? den u said u all will handle poe, i can bochup, cos i'll be compiling the whole of the ib report. ok lor, so i do ib report lor. den i managed to get ib report done on time leh. did anyone realise that? no lor, say what i nv do anything to poe. is u all say i no need to do de leh! wahlao, offer to help poe still kena shoot. i really dunno what to say la. i know the email put mktg plan is done by her lor, not under my name lor, so of cos i wont hav a part in poe mah, cos my part is alr edited and her name is put there instead of mine. nvm, i diamdiam, cos u all tell me to concentrate on ib mah. den, aiyah, juz damn buay song.... i know every1 worked hard for this, but why is my effort not seen ar?????? compiling ib no need effort? and do u know that i had to do major reconstructions to the ib proj? does any1 care? no! cos all too conc on poe. aiya!!!!! i really dunno liao la, im juz glad that all these is over lor, but i really dunno why my effort is not recognised along with everyone else's. personally i juz feel that its not fair to me. even after today's 'talk', i oso feel that even tho we opened up liao but still, i will recv lesser grading than them, cos of all these abovementioned stuff. aiya!!!! very vaxed!!!!!!! i really duno how liao lar. hais hais hais. my only consolation is that we wont do anymore projs tgt anymore, which is a gd thing cos we usually hav arguments n get buay song over projs. im juz glad that now we can crap with friends. if one were to ask what i have truly learnt from this whole event, i would say that good friends doesnt necessarily equate to good working partners. hais. so much tears today. hais. i still dont understand how it all ended up this way. i sian liao la. juz leave things as it is. i dun wanna rake things up anymore. i cant take it liao.
the tears just cant stop.
why? why does it have to be like this? why do i always have to see from your point of view? why dont you try looking frm MINE instead? why why why. frm the very start u alr condamn everything i say. i know its bad to sum it all in one sweeping statement like this, but pls, do try to understand k? and, i made a surprise discovery today. i didnt know you had an issue with me too. like wahlao la. u asked me aqbt my troubles, den u nv tell me u had an issue with me until today. hais. and you, thanks for vouching for me, cos i think u r like the only one who truly knows the effort i put in. cos probably we're like the only ones who always work through the night, BURNT OUT the midnight and early morning oil. hais. i dunno why is all these happening la. like, i really tried my best liao, i really dont know why. i still think that it all boils down to our previous projs. as in, u didnt have faith in me n her alr, so no matter what we say oso no use what, cos u can only identify with her and her. really no point in saying anything liao lor. as in, if u got an issue with us, u can mention it to us, but pls do not carry forward all these emotional baggage through all the subsequent projects. this way, no matter what we contribute, is of no use. and u know what? i think u associate questions with inability to understand, which is not the case here. cos we r juz asking to clarify. u feel that the both of them know what u r toking abt simply becis they nv ask any qn! hais. do u then think that this is a fair basis to judge. i mean, i can simply zone out and "orh ok ok" to u and u will be superbly satisfied that i 'understood' what u were saying, juz cos i didnt ask u any qn? qns mean that we r processing n thinking. den, juz cos we ask qns, we r penalised with our asking, and u brand us as 'do not understand what u r saying'. now, i ask again, do u think this is a fair gauge? and one more thing, u all r like, wah, she v hardworking leh, she send this at 4am. but have u all thought of it another way, that is that i have worked throughout the nite, way past 4am, for our proj? well, nobody sees it lor. its not like im expecting praise or recognition or anything lor, its juz that, wah, after putting in my share of effort for the project, i get penalised for not doing anything. im like, huh? den all those nights that i go w/o slp is nothing ah? tell me earlier la, den i try so hard for what. after all sleep or not oso equate to nothing, den i bia so hard for what?? hais. i really dunno what to say lor. hais. and let me mention agn, im in charge of marketing, which means the price, place and promotion. and in addition, i helped to contribute to major competitors altho its not my part. i know it may not sound like much lar, but i DID my part+ help out with another topic. i dunno wy u all think competitors and mkt analysis is mine lor. but anyw, i did all these, den i kana aimed for not doing anything. of cos in the end i machiam like nv do anything lar! cos my mktg plan was changed what. hais. u all wanna change my hard work, i nothing to say liao lor, but the fact is that i DID my part, which means that i had fulfilled my duty, and i really see no reason why u wanna penalise me for it. its like u hav an issue with us, den u complain n complain to her and her, thinking that the both of them will come tell us, but no lor, they dun wanna get involved. then how? u think that they're alr telling us abt all these complaints, when actually we have heard nothing of it. so of cos we dun change to improve la, cos we dunno mah. den u suddenly say wanna penalise us, i v sad leh, do u know? all these effort, hais, like cannot be seen by every1 except her. lucky she vouch for me can? else ah.. hais... i really think i'll be in hot soup this time. why, i look like im slacking meh? the changing of the marketing part is not i want de lor, and the reason why i wanna go home that day when u all were at the lab doing the proj is cos i really buay tahan liao, cos i spent the nights doing mktg thing mah. den u , u say dun force dun force, juz try ur best, go slp liao den wake up early to continue, den u blame us why the thing last min. so inconsistant, den what shld i do? u said, no need to worry abt poe, juz do ib. i asked, then what abt all my parts? den u said u all will handle poe, i can bochup, cos i'll be compiling the whole of the ib report. ok lor, so i do ib report lor. den i managed to get ib report done on time leh. did anyone realise that? no lor, say what i nv do anything to poe. is u all say i no need to do de leh! wahlao, offer to help poe still kena shoot. i really dunno what to say la. i know the email put mktg plan is done by her lor, not under my name lor, so of cos i wont hav a part in poe mah, cos my part is alr edited and her name is put there instead of mine. nvm, i diamdiam, cos u all tell me to concentrate on ib mah. den, aiyah, juz damn buay song.... i know every1 worked hard for this, but why is my effort not seen ar?????? compiling ib no need effort? and do u know that i had to do major reconstructions to the ib proj? does any1 care? no! cos all too conc on poe. aiya!!!!! i really dunno liao la, im juz glad that all these is over lor, but i really dunno why my effort is not recognised along with everyone else's. personally i juz feel that its not fair to me. even after today's 'talk', i oso feel that even tho we opened up liao but still, i will recv lesser grading than them, cos of all these abovementioned stuff. aiya!!!! very vaxed!!!!!!! i really duno how liao lar. hais hais hais. my only consolation is that we wont do anymore projs tgt anymore, which is a gd thing cos we usually hav arguments n get buay song over projs. im juz glad that now we can crap with friends. if one were to ask what i have truly learnt from this whole event, i would say that good friends doesnt necessarily equate to good working partners. hais. so much tears today. hais. i still dont understand how it all ended up this way. i sian liao la. juz leave things as it is. i dun wanna rake things up anymore. i cant take it liao.
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