*sniggers-

2008-04-15T13:57:00.000-07:00

heys yo,

its been hell of a long time since i posted.. does anyone still visit, i wonder.

2008-02-04T09:13:00.000-08:00

third febuary two thousand eight, 03:16am.

i'll never forget this date, ever.

2008-01-08T18:05:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a particularly heart-wrenching night.

Yesterday, only yesterday, had I realized that I was the reason why he took up THREE jobs. On top of his schooling.

He wanted to give me a surprise, and surprises cost money. He was tired, but he persisted in the jobs, because he knew what I wanted & he wanted to make the three occasions memorable. (valentine’s day, our 4th anniversary & my 21st birthday)

After a series of things not going well for him, I guess disappointment & fatigue set in. Lack of sleep too. And then yesterday we were out with his friends, 2 other couples and some others. Both were very lovey-dovey, hand-holding & hugging and kissing.

But not us. Was feeling pretty mad at him cos he didn’t even show any sign of affection at all. Didn’t even bother to hold my hand. Some friend even mistook me as the girlfriend of another guy. Holy crap. Yes, the situation was that bad. And did I mention that he spoke to the others much more than he spoke to me? He kept saying he was too tired to hold my hand, and to talk. Yet he can chat with others. Very de buaysong lors.

Left the bunch & quarreled. Said he was very tired, buried his head in his arms. Was damn damn pissed. I mean, the situation was so bad his frens asked if we were alright. Couldn’t he have just held my hand at least to pacify the curious audience. Even they could tell that trouble was brewing lor. Started to gan him abt his cold behaviour towards me.. was he afraid to hold my hand or something? Or we just didn’t share what we used to have anymore?

He remain montionless, not uttering a word, head still cradled in his arms. Hey, are you listening to me?! I cried out loud, not caring abt the curious glances shot in our direction. “Not listening”, he grunted, “im sleeping.”

I broke down. Here I was, telling him how I felt and hoping we could discuss and settle things for the better, and he didn’t even give a hoot abt how I felt and could actually sleep. I honestly felt that at the moment, nothing I do or say would matter to him anymore. I couldn’t even warrant a 5-second attention span frm him, all he did was to bury his head in his arms and sleep sleep sleep. I honestly felt that he didn’t care abt me anymore.

“Fine, since you don’t even care about me anymore, let’s break up.” There, I did it. I spoke the unthinkable.

He lifted his head, his eyes still closed, a tear slowly trickling down his cheek. Then the emotional flood came. He finally broke the silence and told me abt all the difficulties that he was facing.

When he was done, there was a dull ache in my heart. “Why didn’t you tell me all these earlier? I didn’t know u were facing all these..”

“Cos I didn’t want you to worry about me.”

You can imagine how much I cried that night.

2007-12-20T19:13:00.000-08:00

14 dec fri - on leave. go CMPB settle dear's enlistment stuff den go koon... very tired..

15 dec sat - had an interview with a cheekopek.. wahlao.. potential boss cheeko.. cannot imagine.. offered $1800 per mth.. tot abt it but decided to reject.. den evening went to Richard's house for steamboat gathering..

16 dec sun - out with yp to "zeng" his car.. whaha.. i get to choose the compartments! nxt month gonna put those blue blue lights le.. keke.. turn his car into bengster car.. c la, side effect of hanging out w me.. now those NB KP words all come out liao... kinda miss those chao liann days.. keke.. after that went Cafe Cartel.. had Chef's Salad & Ribs! YUM!! =D

17 dec mon - Eugene jio me go out have dinner w him at Buddy Hoagies.. had chicken bolognase..

18 dec tue - go dearr's house slack.. tickle time!!! kekeke - evil grin-

19 dec wed - cineleisure with dearr... go collect his fren give us de movie tickets to Premiere of National Treasure 2!! hee.. going to watch on fri.. stayed over..

20 dec thur PH - pei dearr until 4pm den go home.. he send me back halfway to AMK.. cos he gonna b late for work liao.. den abt 11pm met yp for a while so he said "we need to talk".. dotts..

21 dec fri - OLD WOMAN & BOSS NOT IN!!!!! National Treasure 2 after work, at cineleisure!! =) dunno if staying over or not..

22 dec sat - OLD WOMAN & BOSS NOT IN!!! dunno if wan go work or not.. evening meeting yp for dinner..

23 dec sun - whole day out with my family to watch WARLORDS at amk hub!! hahaha.. whole family outing.. long time dun haf le.. shld b quite fun.. =D somemore i nv go amk hub watch movie b4.. after that at night meet eugene hav christmas dinner at Buddy Hoagies

24 dec mon - OLD WOMAN N BOSS NOT IN!!! LAST DAY TO ENJOY>>> working till 4pm. Big Boss treating us to christmas lunch. Evening will be at honeyy's work de christmas bash! Honeyy is one of the organising committee.. think he should be there earlier ba.. i'll be joing him after work. have to rmb to bring along a present..

25 dec tue - tentatively having christmas gathering with sec sch darlinggss..

2007-12-01T23:34:00.000-08:00

watched a movie with Eugene yesterday as i was feeling terribly guilty for rejecting his dates for so many times (i think add up got 50 times total..).

said he got something he wished to tell me verbally instead of using sms.

hmm? -raises eyebrow-

...actually all these while, I have been giving you hints here and there.. not sure if you realised it.. I'm a little uptight and upset with you for 'pushing' me away to Girl A & Girl B back then cos all these while I have feelings for you.. Just dont know why you push me to other people. I guess you will be feeling very confused now. I'll give you some time to think about this. Once you have the answer and have decided whether you want to be with me, let me know..

Damn. Tio again.

Just imagine, this ex-colleague, whom I have been treating as a good friend, has been telling for a bloody 4 whole months that he is into another ex-colleague of ours, and for 4 bloody months he has been seeking me for advice on how to win the girl's heart, which I readily helped.

4 months later he breaks this horrifying news to me, and does exactly what i advised--to yours truly.

Damn.

I am bloody angry.. it was kind intention on my part to matchmake the both of them together, that's why i didn't mind dishing out suggestions. Little did i know who the end receiver of this surprise would be.

Argh. Just a bloody waste of my time & effort.

He could have been more frank at the beginning. Then this whole long cumbersome thing would't even have started. Wahlao i treat him as friend, trusted him when he said he liked that girl, in the end turn out to be like that. Means he is indirectly lying to me lor. kaoz.

and, if you think that surprise worked for me just because i provided the suggestions, think again.

You're Still The One

2007-11-25T07:48:00.000-08:00

time flies.

it has been nearly 4 years since we met.

it is incredible, isn't it? i live in the north while u live in east.. isn't it amazing that we actually met in the west?

bukit panjang.. i'll never forget the place.. it is where u teased me mercilessly.. chased me around with the fake snowflakes.. refilled the icy cold water for me when everyone had to drink bland tap water.. taught me how to tie the special knot.. taught me how to play the remote controlled car.. u teasing me when i bought the bag.. u treating me to bread as a form of apologising. every salesperson knew we were quarrelling, cos we were on cold war with each other.. the sales floor has never been this quiet! lol.

last day of the sales, just when i tot we will never meet again, he asked for my number. chatted with me abt your past.. learn tabt your school background.. just when i tot i had gotten to know u better, u told me u r helping your fren look for gf, so u will b passing my number to him. disappointed...

your fren sms-ing me in bus beside you, and it's driving you insanely jealous & u dunno why. that night u called me, and we chatted for hours. subsequently every night we started chatting. incidentally found out that we will be working in same area again, this time at westmall.

arranged to meetup for breakfast. i was late, as usual. didnt know u would be early. too late for breakfast. but we reached westmall 10min earlier. first kiss. racing hearts.

u requested for a breakup. found out that you actually broke up with your gf to be with me. u were reprimanded by your buddies on how irresponsible u were, leaving a girl for another. saw your msg for a breakup when i was working in hougang mall. numb for the whole day. i can only ren.

didnt contact you since. until a week before valentine's day, received a msg from you.. "..i don't know how to love you.. but i cant forget you. you are my only true love.. " (and other juicy bits which i deem too juicy for this post, lol)

and now.. counting back.. that's nearly 3years 9months of being together with you..

so many ups and downs...

so many heartbreaks..

and amazingly, we are still together.

i guess... i guess i really do love you. and i know you do too.

cos my heart still skips a beat whenever we kiss. not as much as when we first stated, but i know the spark is still there.

You're Still The One - Shania Twain

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong (You're still the one)

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

i guess.. i really do love you.

2007-11-25T07:27:00.000-08:00

he drove me up to Mount Faber, to witness the beautiful night scenery.

presented me three roses, two beautiful baby pink roses and one white, and told me the meaning of giving three roses.

presented me with a single stalk of budding pink rose, which signifies One & Only, he emphasised.

just because i mentioned that i loved receiving flowers.

hand-delivered a cd which he made for me. compilation of our photos.

delivered a bouquet of 12 red roses to my office.

brought me to Dempsey to dine (oh gosh three figure bill)

and bought me my fave soft-toy cartoon character.

i know you have done a lot for me...

but i have told you before...

i cannot love you...

no matter how many times you propose..

i cannot accept you...

because i am ATTACHED....

please..

dont force me anymore...

please..............

2007-09-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

hit by viral infection. slept for only 2 hrs last night. there goes my weekend. 2 out of Cloud5 hit. The rest, pls take good care of yourselves.

2007-08-26T05:27:00.000-07:00

Weiyi is hospitalised again, this time at SGH. A relapse of her previous condition. It's called mang2 chang2 yan2 in mandarin. According to LC, this afternooon WY didnt even have the strenth to talk much, and has no attitite. She is on drip. Please continue to pray for her.

2007-08-19T02:54:00.000-07:00

Alright, first things first. Thanks to all who prayed for Weiyi's recovery. Went to DD's birthday chalet with her last night, she was as alive and noisy as a flute. (By the way, she plays the flute.) That girl sure recovers fast! lol. Oh yes, which reminds me...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEDUAN!!

Well,well. It has been a busy week. Although my job scope requires me to do only administrative duties, I have somehow became my manager's unofficial Secretary. Instead of processing forms I am currently taking and producing minutes which my manager happily changes the Done By column to her name instead of mine and submits it up as if the work's done by her. my fren says that it's common practice. well, i guess i'll need some time to get used to it.

Fri night there's company dinner, dined from 7pm till midnight. Thank goodness didnt have to work the following day, else sure CMI de. lol. damn full sia. hahaha.. really eat n eat n eat.. cos got more than 12 different kinds of meat. got a cocktail too. keke. alchoholic kick. then got a lift from Team Leader's husband's car to honey's area to find him n his kakis. they all wanna go makan dinner, so join them chat chat a bit. Then it's off to honey's house to wait for him to bathe b4 going out. Less than 10min sitting on his sofa i KO already.. it was only 1.10am, on a friday night!! wah piang eh so paiseh. if my nitelife friends found that out they sure laugh de. keke. Morning he woke me up when i was in his arms. hmm.. quite sweet. hees.

His sis jio us go K sing. It was oso the 1st time me n him sang a song together after so long wor! heehees not bad~ then after 2hrs he gotta go work liao.. -pouts- then his sis n i sang finish the whole session b4 we went to do some shopping. wa.. overshot timing.. rush home get ready b4 chionging dwn to DD's bday chalet. my fren fetch me to bedok 85 makan a bit b4 he sent me home.

then now will be going for HM's bdae cum WY's recovery celebration at cityhall. i am a person with too much life.. can hard-fight with WY's schedule liao!! lol. alrights, gtg!!

2007-07-26T10:58:00.000-07:00

WEIYI IS HOSPITALISED.
all who knows her pls pray for her full recovery. we miss your smile, weiyi!!!

selected for a sponsored course. 1st lesson coming sunday. will update u all on what's the lessons' all abt!

finally managed to purchase PAUL SMITH FLORAL. that's my ultimate favvvve perfume kkaes. super happie to get it. -megawatt smile- i am so pleased with myself. damn difficult to get it kaes.

*pfft* *pfft*

xiang xiang hors?? keke.

am being childish here. cya ppl!! pls drink more water these days tk care of yr health.. 3 out of my TP clique Cloud 5 fell ill.. tsktsk.

2007-07-21T03:31:00.000-07:00

im officially employed by far east organisation.

funds for my shopping sprees!

-rubs hands together in glee-

2007-07-18T11:01:00.000-07:00

Recently got to know a guy. Let's just call him edi for short.

Now now, edi is not your regular guy nxt door.

This edi is:

-very tall and well built

-has a nice smile

-sporty

-very very very hilarious (he is one ultra funny guy i assure you!)

-clubs (and therefore is not nerdy)

-has a degree in biz from NTU

-earns a very handsomely rewarding income

-has a PLATINUM card

-is a MENSA MEMBER

...

life is unfair, ain't it? He is only 25 this year, dammit.

met up with him for lunch and dinner, then clubbing session tonight with few of his kakis.

lunch went well, and after that he expressed his interest. ("hardly got pretty girls like u coming into my life" etc.) then met up for dinner at vivo. kept asking me to take a sip of his drink altho he was feeling feverish. siao ar, later i kana his virus how?? so i politely rejected him lor. When i came back to my seat with my piping hot order, he went, "wow that looks nice, can i try?" wahlao, he ask till like that liao, how to reject? bo pian lor, this type is zhu ding (fated) to get his virus de lor. after giving permission, he took a spoonful of my soup n fish and declared that he, too, was going to get the same dish. chey, so no originality. lol.

after dinner we went to look for his kakis to go st. james together. on our way, we saw a girl, n i was saying my usual stuff. "wah, that girl quite pretty hor?" he went like," oh, that's my classmate's ex." ehh? can bump into shou ppl so easily de? hmm, coincidence ba i concluded. met up with his friends, two Erics and a Lester. warmed up to the quite easily ba, i still rmb Lester is the 1st to talk to me among them. (juz a sidetrack, wahlao that edi told them i was from sn and crooked okays. damn paiseh lars! chao blabbermouths in tight green shorts! bleah.) so we were all looking at pretty babes lor, exactly what i always do with yp roger nicky that group. hahahaa~ i am such a babe watcher. anyways edi was alr telling me to check out a certain girl liao lors. im like dots, lucky i enjoy watching girls, otherwise other girls would have been offeneded if they were in my shoes kae. keep checking out that girl, so much so that im pretty convinced that his expressing interest to me probably wasnt worth very much.

opened jim beam in the karaoke rm, they played cai quan (guessing game) while i watched. by this time got tok to all the guys le. Lester keep asking me to drink more. -_- then we chabok to zouk, where it was mambo jumbo nite. on our way a pretty funky girl suddenly ran up to edi and gave him a big big bear hug! i was like stunned dio. aei, this guy not only has connections lor, the girl who hugged him was pretty hot kays. parting w the girl, he went on to share that while he was with his ex, he secretly went on a swimming session with the hot babe. (hardly got any pretty girls coming into his life? HAH!) starting to feel that this guy not really that dependable type de.

after they downed their flaming lamborginis, it was onto the dance floor! Edi was okok, one Eric was self enthu & the other was pretty stoned, but it was Lester who was dancing with me. Aint dancing much la, not dance as hiong as nicky n i that time, but coming on pretty strong wor, as in got attempt to hold waist, hold hand to "guide" my way etc. Sth like what Justin do lor.

The edi saw his ex, ps-ed us, and we saw both of them walk hand in hand holding hands. very weird leh, they break liao still hold hands? and none of them had a pained expression or any sign of depression from breakup. They were both smiling happily, not angry nor sad nor annoyed. very very weird indeed!! Lester told me this is not the 1st time edi zhong4 se4 qing1 you3 alr. Den we all juz sian diao, all go home leave edi there lors. one Eric n i shared a cab, cos he lived in amk. Lester n the other Eric go Jurong n Bukit Timah, forgot who is where. So our day ended like that lor, like so strange.

weird ending to the day lars. seriously the girls that edi knows r all very hott lehs, makes me wanna discredit his statement. i only know one thing: be his gf will b very chum, cos he got damn a lot of tao2 hua1 yun4!!! sure jealous dao siao de. n oso probably suffer from low self esteem, cos all those girls all inhuman de, so tall and skinny with flawless skin n perfected makeup.

yup, aiyar, dunno lar, see how lor, see if he keep in contact these few days. damn dots. n to think that i tot he was a zhen4 ren2 jun1 zi3 (real gentleman), in the end is hua1 hua1 gong1 zi2 (flowery prince?! lol.) i tot i strike toto leh, but well guess no one's perfect. God is always fair. haha.

wanted to tell u all more abt another guy, but am too tired to continue. newaes this post is too long le la, i gtg sleep. haha. ciaos people!

2007-07-14T10:14:00.000-07:00

been quite a busy week, interviews n meetups and all. but definately enjoying it! here's the lowdown:

monday:
interview at defu lane+ quick lunch with june (short meet-up with ray, my sec sch classmate who hasnt seen me for a good 5yrs. he looked stunned when he saw me. wonder if that's good or bad.) sighs too bad couldnt chat much with june cos she gotta rush off to fetch her dear bf who's coming back frm camp. big shot! -humphs- haha. den after that i go to june's working place n chatted with her while she worked. wah shiok la, the whole place only she taking care, wanna ask who come chat chat oso can, wah.. this type of job can consider lehs.. hahaha..

tuesday:
meet honeyy for whole dae! haha.. such a sweet day.. he offered to come to my house doorstep n bought me breakfast! wah.. black pepper chicken and egg and mashed potatoes! AND drink provided! aww... so nice of him.. had a fun time laughing n joking. noontime he broke my cosmetics by accident, that kinda spoilt our day a little. -frowns- (what?? cosmetics expansive okays!!) foul mood, he wanted to buy me the cosmetics den go home straight. haha, who knew when it was time to go he didn't bear to! whahaha~ i got the upper hand.. lalala~ wanted to go watch movie but in the end no suitable timing so didnt get to watch any. went to suntec arcade instead. i juz casually told him i like a certain lilo n stitch figurine inside a machine, he went to change tokens immediately liao. i was like wtf? why he so nice to me sia? lol. den our 3rd try the machine actually giap-ed the soft toy securely, that kind of 99.999% sure will get it de, THEN IN THE END THE STUPID GIAP GOT NO STRENGTH TO LIFT THE SOFT TOY OUT! i was like WTF WTF WTF!!! argh.. so pissed.. the lilo n stitch should have been mine!! should have taken pic let u all see.. damn kns.. hahhaa.. but anyw it was like real sweet of him to offer to get the softtoy lah, considering that our honeymoon period should be long over liaos. i have this ultra weakness for auto guys can. (which girl doesnt?) haha. yepp, sweet day hors? will never forget this day de. machiam like strike toto like that ar, kana treated like a princess. rare chance. whahaha.

wednesday:
interview at chinatown + dimsum with cloud! + interview at maritus mandarin
whahaha dimsum DIMSUM!!!!! hahahaa.. ehh those reading this post dun be jealous hor.. not much la.. juz shrimps wrapped in delicate translucent skin dipped in sweet mayo only mah.. aiya nothing much one la.. oh ya.. and pineapple fillings wrapped in a crisp crust.. and and... whahahaha!!! i think u all gonna whack me liao!!

thursday:
meetup with june and yishan
meetup was brief cos yishan had to go for her cca.. so in the end i spend more time with june agn. haha. wanted to chat more in the shop de, but that guy came over. eeyer, didnt wanna play such a BIGGGG gooseberry (lightbulb lah) so i auto zao lors. went bradell to see doc. reach home by 7.30pm! wah, break record for the week, go home so early.

friday:
was confirmed for the job at chinatown, but i dowan. went for another interview instead at tanjong pagar. yala, i boliao la, wanna try my luck mah, cos this one better prospects n pay. hurhurr. so who's complaining abt more pay? lol. after that went to meet honeyy at tampines. long time never go there, in a matter of months they build new escalator n shifted whole of Courts liao. efficient sia! pretty sweet too.. ate at LJS, walked around, he bought a DVD and so went to his house n watched with his family. was supposed to be a horror but find it quite funny n lame instead. den after that as usual he pei me walk to the night rider busstop and in the end decided to send me home. lol. so ke lian him, everytime oso like tt, nxt day he got work de wor, tt's y he's always sleep deprived. cos while i can snooze at home on sat, he has to work! kekeke.. panda eyes!

saturday:
like i said, snoozing all the way la. just lazing around.. pretty slack life. joshua msged me out of the blue n asked me really weird qns. justin, who said wanna back out liao, asked me out tonite but i told him i juz wanna slack. poor guy, always nvr ask at right time de. den my 2nd ex oso suddenly msg me out of the blue. my biker ex too! so strange. will be meeting charming biker ex tmr for a movie at noon! haha.

okies, now my schedule left shujun n joan havent meet. when oh when when can we meet? wanna catch up with u all. haven heard frm yp in a while, but i guess it's all for the better. yeap, that's abt all. really pray that the company i went to interview on fri wants me, cos i really really wanna get into the co. people, pray for me please! =D alrites, till then! adios~!

2007-07-03T17:36:00.000-07:00

the world is getting crazier by the moment.

NINE asked for number yesterday.

and you know what?

yesterday was breakout day.

or maybe, just maybe, the guys in Ang Mo Kio, Macpherson & Bugis were hit by the flu bug yesterday.

2007-06-11T08:52:00.000-07:00

Phew!! Weeks certainly whizz past when you work long hours. Time for updates again!

1. Nicky's Bday Celebration @ St. James

Last sat was Nicky's bday party, the big flirt actually had 17 guys VS 3 girls invited for his celebration! Wah, talk abt unequal proportions okie. haha, but at least glad that i was invited lar. (perhaps due to the fact 4 days before his bdae we actually had a great talk) the party boy invited friends frm all walks of his life, but i think the whole nite he was like disappeared to dunno where (snogging gals i supposed). funny lei, bday party with every1 but the bday boy ard de. lol. nvm la, we had our fair share of fun too. at 1st the guys went to techno dance floor, which i was super against. dunno how to dance laaa.. haha, so stand there discussing which girls are hot with the guys. wahlao eh, damn gossip de okie!! i realised some of the littlest things turn guys on! (hello, i didnt know that having a naval ring can giv an orgasmic effect lorrrrrrr) haha basically fun bitching n comparing.. den we moved on to the R&B dancefloor yay!! That super rocks man.. the music was so high and interactive with everyone. Had fun dancing and singing with Sean, Trev, Yiping and Roger..altho i was the only girl in this grp -_- all in all, very fun, and i also got a first person account as to how the club actually works (the whole sex sells theory) to cut the long story short, many girls coming over to our table to ask the guys to buy them a drink simply cos our table is brimming with guys and more guys. bday boy was smart, he blatently lied that i was his girlfriend and he will get scolded if he bought any drink for them! yea, i quickly nodded to affirm, we have been together for 5 yrs already! and the whole table burst into woof whistles and cheered me on. hahahaha... anything for you, birthday boy. =DDD if anyone interested can also refer to my previous St. James entry. yea, in the end shared a cab home with the bday boy =)

2. Work and Colleagues

everyone and everything's great, i just want to see how many pay turns out to be. for those who do not know, i am currently in an marketing and events company. Adrian, Pru, Sankar, Kelvin, Cynthia, Tian, Karin, Clara, Dev, Eugene, Ariff, Bernard(s) it has been great working with all of you all. cheers to good working relations!

3. Friends

was extremely nice catching up with Cloud and Daisy this week. too bad cant get to see the rest of Cloud 5! hey we r the invincible team,really must find a day to sit down and talk kks?? =((-misses- AND super super missing shujun and june and julia now!!! hello hello.. where have you girls gone to??? updates man.. haha, and btw for all who knows Godwin, do grab him up for a meetup sometime this wk, as he will be booking into tekong coming Sat liao! i am meeting him today for dinner whahaha... cant wait to c him getting chaotah! -evil grinssssssss-

4. Achievements

awarded the Leadership Merit Award. Will be recvg it this coming wed. mum and dad took leave. yays! haha.

okok, update finally finished!! now going out to visit jk's ahma who was hospitalised. hope she gets well soon!! busy busy, who wants to go out gor GSS shopping next sat auto come sms me arh!!! hahahha.. cya peeps!! =DD

2007-04-29T13:30:00.000-07:00

guess i havent blogged for a very long time.

alright, here's the freakingly long post:

met D the rich rich guy, went clubbing with him. 1st time meet he fetch me to MOS at 2am, lols. chatted, came to know he found me to be an ambitious person who aims high. -_- okayy. he also mentioned that i would be very very suitable to be in sales. hmm.. maybe cos my previous jobs are sales-related, and hence has moulded me into a stereotype? hmm dunno lahs haha. met a TP junior there. haha, future exco liao, still always so happening one. lol. then D is like very weird la, keep saying he wan to drink only dowan dance, den i wonder why he suggested going club in the 1st place? might as well go pub if he wants to drink. weird. so only myself at the dance floor lehs! dots. but he was kind enough to hold my bag for me. lol. and so that was how i met H, cos he danced with me and asked for my number. after that MOS closed for the day, D and i went to the dam and ate the food we tarpow-ed. chatted abt yishan. lol. not bad experience. but 2nd time meeting him, the experience was horrid. he and his friend asked me to go st james. yp drove me there. D was pretty alright, but his friend dragged in a china woman who clung on to him like there were glue on both of them. yucks. damn erxin can. disgusting. and the way the ppl danced there... ewwww. that was the day i had truly gained insight as to how men viewed women--as disposable cheap thrills. really yucks lor. haiyo. dunno la. very turned off alr, den D made a sickening comment to Ms Clingy, which made her have the impression that she was more superior to me. that was the last straw man. imagine, the cheap woman thinking she is more superior to me after all her revolting acions! and she is smiling SMUGLY, thinking she has the upper hand compared to me! yucks yucks yucks yucks. that was the last straw, i cannot stand being compared to such ppl. i stormed out of st james with a black face, and D sent me home. sighs. so much for a memorable sat. seesh. that was the last time i went out with D, havent been contacting him since.

okay, onto H. rmb i met H at the dance floor? hmm.. he added me in msn and friendster, and then frequently sms and msn me. siao one, this guy everyday chiong de, everyday got programe on de. what majong session la, clubbing la, kbox la, movie la.. everything under the moon he also can do... and is everyday consecutively wor! lol. so pei fu him got so much energy. but this guy, haiyo, whole day keep saying he is bad boy, keep trying to act like bad boy, but i dont really think he is lehs. weird. it's like he's trying to be someone he isn't comforable with. even 2nd meeting he also confessed that to me. find him okok bah..then 3rd time he wanna meet that time, wah! big shock.. he tried to kiss me with his beer-infested breath can!! disgusting. reeking of beer stench still dare come near lau niang! lol. lucky never let him tan dio, rushed home. full stop.

which leads to the nxt issue.. there's a sudden sms from someone saying wanna know me. it started with a simple "hi".. i ask who's this n how he/she get my number, and the reply i got was that he's a guy named M and the number he anyhow press de. just so happened to chance upon my number. den i was thinking, ok, probably some lonely soul w/o friends, may be dangerous, let me ignore him. nxt day i recvd this sms "hey jane.. dont ignore me.. i really wan to be friends with u" im like WHAT THE HELL.. how the hell did he know my name? still say anyhow sms de.. what the-???? so i asked him the burning qn of how he knew my name, and HE REPLIED SAYING HE KNOWS A LOT MORE ABT ME. eeee. sounds psycho. freaky. keep saying he wants to meet up. yikes. keep rejecting, in the end one fine day i outside M called n asked to meet. it was a hot afternoon a sweltering 2pm with loads to ppl walking ard i figured no harm would come to me bah so i said "aiyah whatever want to meet then meet la" lol. in the end sat a bench and chatted, this guy is not bad la, but what irritates me is that he clams up whenever i asked him who gave him my number. when i persisted, he became even more silently stubborn. wahlao. pissed can. but this guy ah.. lean so close.. i was like ee since i cant find out where he got my number frm i better charbok (siam away) when i still can. in the end i managed to find out who gave M my number--it was H! all cos i clicked on the new pic he uploaded to friendster on his profile. lol turns out that M asked H abt me and the latter gave him my number. lame can. ok since mystery solved i can just put these two jokers aside ler dont need to care abt them. lol.

met up with one of my exes. he's still amazingly sweet and totally oozing with boyish charm. wonder why i initiated the breakup. lol. but he's not a keeper la. i guess that's the reson why. anywaes, we were chatting near my house downstairs, and my dad just happened to walk past us on his way home. LOL. he damn suay can. the security guard who is close with mum was also the guard who let us into the condo. jialat, dunno if the guard will paotoh to my mum or not. haiyo, told u he damn suay. den walked abt for a freaking long time and distance till we could actually find a spot to sit down. all the nice spots got couples around de, and we dont want to disturb them that's why we go other place. lol. i say again for the 3rd time, he's damn suay. hahahahaha. but he's great. and he says im great. and you know what? i believe him. lols. ego ego. he ask me go find him everyday. siao one. he got gf liao lor.

speaking of exes, i met my 2nd one on my way back from tampines ikea. he was on his way to ikea. talk abt fate lors. imagine both of us stay north de, didnt get to meet each other for abt 1.5yrs, and we can actually meet each other in the east, at tampines! lol. so lame can. this day i rmb, it was friday the 13th. both of us agreed that it was black fate that we meet on the day lors, lol. yup but didnt get to chat much, cos i was rushing to meet cloud 5 (ronald took over cloud's position for the day) and wy's friends to go settlers!! hahah.. quite high la lol. wy's friends jiu shi wy's friends.. will own self high one.. just like us! lol. hmm.. den in the end go home that time all shared a cab home.. left me and a guy who lived in yishun. eeyer.. like so weird lors. sians. chatted for awhile, and guess what? my 2nd ex sms-ed me, saying he spotted me and he's on the same train with me!! aiyo, meet twice in a day, where got so zhun one?? must really credit all to the black fate from friday 13th lol. so me, my 2nd ex and the yishun guy chatted on our way home.. my ex offered to send me back home! haha.. happy to see him.. it has been 1.5yrs.. loads to catch up on! so we happily chatted as we scanned our cards out.. and all of a sudden i saw yp standing at the control stn there waiting for me. oh shoots. i'd been too high at settler's and too happy to see my ex till i'd clean forgotten yp said he'll be there to fetch me! wahlao, somemore i chatting on the phone with another person somemore. wah, the situation sibeh awkard can.. i told the person on the phone to wait, told ex beside me to wait, then walked up to yp and told him i'll meet him later if he doesnt mind. yp tot my ex was my bf! den i went back to my ex, my ex tot yp was my bf. -_- can u all dont like that or not.. think same things.. 1st time meet each other the tots can synchronise liaos ar? lol. when all return to normal den i dare resume the phone conversation, telling the person to call back agn. aiyo, a very mahfan day, i dont really like it when social ties clash in like that. but oh well what can i expect frm friday the 13th right? lol. had a pretty great time chatting with my ex, he keep asking me why i leave him. -_- siao one, he chasing a girl named K he still wanna ask me such qns of the past. wuliao. but really got a lot to chat, cos been 1.5yrs, a lot of things to fill in each other. lol. hmm. nice day overall with him la. den meet yp after him lor. chatted some more.. wah i think im really pro talk so much no need drink water de lols. kou shui duo guo cha. xD

went lunch with my gan kor. i try to abide when he initiate meetings, cos he's undergoing an operation pretty soon and altho i truly trust sg sergeons' skills, hmm still kinda worried la. an op lehs.. sounds pretty scary. will pray for him when time comes. yup so anyw while having lunch i saw that angelina again, having chosen to take a seat beside my table abide other seats available. haiyo, i guess black fate is not only restricted to friday the 13th bah. anyw convo was pretty fake "wow jane, you have changed so much, i almost coudn't recognise you!" "really? haha. i take that as a compliment then." lol. lame lame. after which, 2nd ex asked to meet up for a little drive. cool leh, never been in his car b4. red one. not bad, although im more used to the grey cars yp and D used to drive me around in. he was a cautious driver. haha, but really not bad.

oh.. so now we're talking abt kors right? aiya, i totally giv up hope on asking N out ler lor, that sickening kor always has got no time for me. really la. sians. i guess i shall give you some time. how i know u so busy sia.. dont so angry liao, ok? seesh. why are you so busy all the time. live in yishun also cannot see u. ><>

what else, what else? oh, went to chinatown with cloud. hurhurs. that girl even almost forgot how to walk to our fave chinatown hangout. hmm. not that im very streetsmart either. keke.

last thur went clubbing with J. 1st time meeting him after so long can. hahaha. MOS too. met the future exco so she can pass me the tix. wahlan eh, go in need to pay cos timing over le. siao liao. i nv bring enuf $$ with me wor. in the end J help me pay 1st. wah that night very chor on J, he pay for all our expenses (taxi fare $13+ MOS tix $40+ taxi fare home $23). wahhhhh. feel guilty lehs let him pay so much. but that night really fun la, haha.. dance until v hiong. lol. i was so into it i didnt even realise the things happening ard me, is J fill me in after the whole thing de. he told me got ppl staring, and a malay guy tap him on the shoulder and gave us a 'good' sign. huh have mehs i didnt even know. ah whatever. who cares. enjoy jiu hao le. lol.

den sat went cafe del moar with yp and some ppl. this is the 2nd time i go the with him le. really not bad la the place.. the concept is pretty interesting. but damn i got drunk. a bit blur dunno what's happening le. den the stupid yp go and 'biao bai' at that time, i freaking didnt even hear a word can. hmm.. i think he kissed me.. they tell me de.. i dunno, i got pretty worked up and shouted sth and then went to the ladies. wahlao eh, the door is where i oso cant make out. siao liao. lucky i on probation with him sia... otherwise kena this type of thing i sure die de. how to ans him sia. dots. haiya like that lor. sian diao sian diao.

i know this month's been pretty happening. im lacking in sleep. lol. gotta rest now, it is 6.07am in the morning. haha. tata people.

2007-04-07T09:29:00.000-07:00

went to my friends' (Revv's) chinese rock gig and after that straight to Jolin's concert. screamed and cheered like maddd..damn high now. jolin super hot and chio can??? and my friends' performance was damn nice too, enjoyed it a lot! wah, one whole night of pure music entertainment. shiok ar!!! -grinning from ear to ear now-

2007-04-04T12:30:00.000-07:00

i want a hug from you pretty bad.

i thought our chat that night went pretty well, didn't it?

do u dare deny it?

2 incidents, u know.

cant be wrong.

is it becos he is your bro, he knows me first, then u decided to shelve it?

hello, love isn't charity lorr. u r supposed to fight for it.

to heck abt the past love experience and ur immaturity

u r just running away from it all lor

i dont understand what your prob

BRACE UP & FACE IT MAN

SO WHATTTTT IF HE IS YOUR CLOSE MATE

stop advertising for them.

argh.

2007-03-31T15:05:00.000-07:00

Super duper HIGH todae!!!

hahaha.. went MOS with julia, yiping and his guy friends today. began with introductions. den found out actually today is roger's bdae celebration, so i forced him to eat his bday cake w/o his hands lol. it was like kinda an impulse kind of thing, but julia later on told me i seemed like v good frens with roger. -_- went to the smoove dance floor with yiping, trev & julia. as usual, super happening. i love the music there can, so much nicer to groove compared to the common one. went inside the cage thing.. super squeezy, but ok la, still got a few inches of space to move ard. yiping was in front of me, trev behind me, julia beside me. after a while the place lost its kick la, cos really v difficult to move. i can feel yp touching my butt alr -_-. better get out of there fast. so the 4 of us squeezed past the crowd and got back to our seat near the common area, joining nicky and shawn they all. they were drinking chivas, and asked julia n i to join them too. they pour all mixed de except for 1 neat, and nicky asked me to drink that. he think i siao ar.. drink that sure concuss there one.. den who gonna bring me back home sia.. i retorted. nicky offered his house. i rolled my eyes. in the end they gave me the mixed cup.. i wanted to share w julia, but nicky keep insisting he n julia share, dont let me escape the alcohol. wahlao. den all finished le all eyes on me waiting for me to drink sia!! argh.. die die.. in the end i drank only like 1/4 of it..den cannot liao.. den nicky took over n help me finish my cup. den it's onto the smoove dance floor again!!! we went in as a whole bigg group, all 7 of us. lol. den suddenly i noticed nicky, shawn, trev they all dancing away, i asked yiping what happened, ohh.... yuan lai they trying to dance with girls wor. lol. okayys. hahahaha.. so left me n julia and yiping dancing tgt only. still okok la, but not very high yet. den nicky n i started doing lame stuff like swinging each other off with our butts. wah his butt so got strength lor! hit my thigh.. i think sure kana bruised liao. lol. den nicky play with all the other guys as well la, like play chacha n kissing with roger, yiping, trev and shawn. it was when all of them came together to dance that it became superb lors. hahaha.. all of them (plus kelvin and eugene, all 9 of them!) formed a circle with julia and i at the centre! like wall of men. lols. really! den i know i at this point of time quite seh alr.. but all i rmb was them closing up the circle towards julia n i in a really funny manner.. den got the music asking them to put their hands in the air, den we all juz yoahyo in a circle like that.. damn high la!!! hahahah... they also keep teasing us and tapping lightly on my head. dunno why they all keep doing that.. i dare say got at least 4 guys keep tapping my head sia! weird.. hahaha dunno lars.. den continue to yoyo.. very into the music liaos.. nicky came behind me and we both started yoahyo.. normally i wld find this a bit weird n awkawrd de lor, but dunno y lehs.. just very very into the music. damn nice. den he ask me i yo very often arx? i just laughed. very natural to dance with him. but i think throughout the whole nite only nicky n yiping dare to come dance solo with me, lol. dunno is i too seh to notice or wad, julia said that there was once where all the guys did the wall of men thing, but left her outside the circle. huhs.. have mehs.. i really didnt know.. sry julia.. if i knew i wld definately have pulled u into the circle. =(( julia oso said all the guys were only interested in talking to me. -_- plsss girl, shawn 1st initiated conversation with u den me lors. den the rest of the time, when they were talking to me, they were talking to u too. or so i thought. i didnt mean to make u feel left out, sorry girl. my apologies. yupyup, left MOS at 3+am.. yiping sent us home. the end of a very fun n high night. nxt time club must definately jio me along!!! =D only thing is chivas left me a lil' crazy. lol. i'll be fine in a while.

2007-03-25T12:27:00.000-07:00

why must things get so complicated?

jk broke my heart, i broke his

i broke g's heart cos of jk
i broke m's heart cos of jk
i broke j's heart cos of jk

jk broke yv's heart cos of me
jk broke mich's heart cos of me
jk is breaking jess' heart cos of me

i broke jk's heart cos of z
z broke my heart

jk broke my heart cos of mich
i broke jk's heart cos with z
jk is on the verge of breaking my heart cos of jess
and i am on the verge of breaking jk's heart cos of yp

..and i have this really bad feeling i will be breaking yp's heart soon.

God, save our hearts. We're heartless beings.

2007-03-24T05:03:00.001-07:00

when i saw his chalet pics today, i was surprised at my lack of emotion to those pics. (read: apathetic) usually, under such circumstance, i'd have made a din and hit the roof already. well, feeling nothing remotely near to that for now. i wonder why.

i came up with 3 conclusions:

1. tit for tat, hence i didn't feel that he owed me too much

2. umm. more options available now? haha. figured that there wouldn't be too much of a loss if i just packed up n go, putting the 3yrs at the back of my mind.

3. (the preferred answer) i have complete trust in him.

yesterday was a flurry of activities.

3.30pm - 8pm
went to meet him at his house
accompanied him to Hougang for his meeting

8.30pm - 11.30pm
rode on a bike ((:
went to his camp, cos he had to take a letter
long ride
fun and comfy, so much that i fell asleep.

12.15am - 7am
was taken out for a car spin
car windows open and stereo blasting at top volume
fast speed
wooh!! damn exciting
lols
had late-night supper at Thomson
went to the 'happening' place
but not much to see though
just slacked n joked around n chatted
very nice and comfy too

- smiles -

i am loving my life. ((:

2007-03-15T13:39:00.000-07:00

you feel the most alone in the heart of the night.

who do i depend on?

who can i depend on?

facades, facades.

enough.

i need one i can depend on for real.

2007-03-08T09:17:00.000-08:00

Went MOS today.
went drinking.
my head's throbbing like mad now.
feeling warm.
counting down to my 20th birthday.

onwards to 20!! =))

2007-03-05T03:27:00.000-08:00

Yay!!!! Super happy now... just help my dad sold his new hp for a pretty good profit!! whahahahhaa~ -happie- ^^

2007-02-25T11:26:00.000-08:00

wow.. i made some amazing discoveries today:

i didnt realise that-

so many people actually READ my blog. (i thought it was rather inactive due to lack of tags.)
so many people, despite their busy schedule, actually took time to read my blog.
so many people are affected by what i wrote in my blog.
so many people are concerned over what i wrote in my blog.
so many people showered their concern on me over what i wrote in my blog.
and..
so many people wanted to help me to make me feel better or my life better over what i wrote in my blog.

wow. amazing.
im so touched by all you people.
people who supported me through and wanted the best for me, all unknowingly accepted by me who took all these for granted.
basically i was just thinking, "wah, how come all these people are all so nice to me ar?" then i'd forget about thanking him/her in a split-second.
im basically swarmed with angels all around me. (:

hence, i wanna take this chance to thank all you wonderful angels popping out all around me who have helped me unknowingly in one way or another.
in short, i just didn't know i mattered THAT much to all of you!!
and i am so slow, i only found out about all your efforts today, lol
im beaming from ear to ear for having found you all

one more thing,
im sorry if whatever i typed in my blog affected u all in a bad way..
cos i wasnt thinking much when i typed the post
it was more like i needed an avenue to blast out all my thoughts and seal them away forever
i didnt know it will affect you all so much..
if i had known i wouldn't type it all down already..
and you,
thanks girl
really touched that you stood up for me
although you approached the wrong person hahaha
but still am touched
didn't know i mattered so much for people to take action laaa hahaha
and to the person who will never read this blog
i just want you to know that from day 1 till now,
i never really bitch about you lor
cross my heart
believe it or not, up to you bahh

found out a lot of things today
and found out a lot of things which i thought you all havent found out
and found out some stuff which i didn't dream of finding out
like, ehh you busy person, i didnt know you had the time to read my blog lorr lol

but hopefully, all's well ends well.
love all of you!! =DDD
so nice of you all that im getting a toothache soon.
a toothache which i'd gladly bear all the pain to savour its lingering taste.

Happy CNY 2007 :)))

2007-02-20T00:34:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!! :)))

i submitted the BOTTOM RIGHT picture up to some valentine's day idol online contest.. and we are now (un)officially branded the fake hebe and wu zun ! -SMUG- either the camera angle was good or there was a lack of contestants lor lol. but we prefer to think that we resembled the idols whahaha. too bad the url is shut down already. Shall not brag anymore.. Gong Xi Gong Xi.. happy new year everyone!! hahaha... looking forward to our anniversary after the exams =DD

2007-02-08T04:14:00.000-08:00

i just wanna cry, over and over again.

the tears just cant stop.

why? why does it have to be like this? why do i always have to see from your point of view? why dont you try looking frm MINE instead? why why why. frm the very start u alr condamn everything i say. i know its bad to sum it all in one sweeping statement like this, but pls, do try to understand k? and, i made a surprise discovery today. i didnt know you had an issue with me too. like wahlao la. u asked me aqbt my troubles, den u nv tell me u had an issue with me until today. hais. and you, thanks for vouching for me, cos i think u r like the only one who truly knows the effort i put in. cos probably we're like the only ones who always work through the night, BURNT OUT the midnight and early morning oil. hais. i dunno why is all these happening la. like, i really tried my best liao, i really dont know why. i still think that it all boils down to our previous projs. as in, u didnt have faith in me n her alr, so no matter what we say oso no use what, cos u can only identify with her and her. really no point in saying anything liao lor. as in, if u got an issue with us, u can mention it to us, but pls do not carry forward all these emotional baggage through all the subsequent projects. this way, no matter what we contribute, is of no use. and u know what? i think u associate questions with inability to understand, which is not the case here. cos we r juz asking to clarify. u feel that the both of them know what u r toking abt simply becis they nv ask any qn! hais. do u then think that this is a fair basis to judge. i mean, i can simply zone out and "orh ok ok" to u and u will be superbly satisfied that i 'understood' what u were saying, juz cos i didnt ask u any qn? qns mean that we r processing n thinking. den, juz cos we ask qns, we r penalised with our asking, and u brand us as 'do not understand what u r saying'. now, i ask again, do u think this is a fair gauge? and one more thing, u all r like, wah, she v hardworking leh, she send this at 4am. but have u all thought of it another way, that is that i have worked throughout the nite, way past 4am, for our proj? well, nobody sees it lor. its not like im expecting praise or recognition or anything lor, its juz that, wah, after putting in my share of effort for the project, i get penalised for not doing anything. im like, huh? den all those nights that i go w/o slp is nothing ah? tell me earlier la, den i try so hard for what. after all sleep or not oso equate to nothing, den i bia so hard for what?? hais. i really dunno what to say lor. hais. and let me mention agn, im in charge of marketing, which means the price, place and promotion. and in addition, i helped to contribute to major competitors altho its not my part. i know it may not sound like much lar, but i DID my part+ help out with another topic. i dunno wy u all think competitors and mkt analysis is mine lor. but anyw, i did all these, den i kana aimed for not doing anything. of cos in the end i machiam like nv do anything lar! cos my mktg plan was changed what. hais. u all wanna change my hard work, i nothing to say liao lor, but the fact is that i DID my part, which means that i had fulfilled my duty, and i really see no reason why u wanna penalise me for it. its like u hav an issue with us, den u complain n complain to her and her, thinking that the both of them will come tell us, but no lor, they dun wanna get involved. then how? u think that they're alr telling us abt all these complaints, when actually we have heard nothing of it. so of cos we dun change to improve la, cos we dunno mah. den u suddenly say wanna penalise us, i v sad leh, do u know? all these effort, hais, like cannot be seen by every1 except her. lucky she vouch for me can? else ah.. hais... i really think i'll be in hot soup this time. why, i look like im slacking meh? the changing of the marketing part is not i want de lor, and the reason why i wanna go home that day when u all were at the lab doing the proj is cos i really buay tahan liao, cos i spent the nights doing mktg thing mah. den u , u say dun force dun force, juz try ur best, go slp liao den wake up early to continue, den u blame us why the thing last min. so inconsistant, den what shld i do? u said, no need to worry abt poe, juz do ib. i asked, then what abt all my parts? den u said u all will handle poe, i can bochup, cos i'll be compiling the whole of the ib report. ok lor, so i do ib report lor. den i managed to get ib report done on time leh. did anyone realise that? no lor, say what i nv do anything to poe. is u all say i no need to do de leh! wahlao, offer to help poe still kena shoot. i really dunno what to say la. i know the email put mktg plan is done by her lor, not under my name lor, so of cos i wont hav a part in poe mah, cos my part is alr edited and her name is put there instead of mine. nvm, i diamdiam, cos u all tell me to concentrate on ib mah. den, aiyah, juz damn buay song.... i know every1 worked hard for this, but why is my effort not seen ar?????? compiling ib no need effort? and do u know that i had to do major reconstructions to the ib proj? does any1 care? no! cos all too conc on poe. aiya!!!!! i really dunno liao la, im juz glad that all these is over lor, but i really dunno why my effort is not recognised along with everyone else's. personally i juz feel that its not fair to me. even after today's 'talk', i oso feel that even tho we opened up liao but still, i will recv lesser grading than them, cos of all these abovementioned stuff. aiya!!!! very vaxed!!!!!!! i really duno how liao lar. hais hais hais. my only consolation is that we wont do anymore projs tgt anymore, which is a gd thing cos we usually hav arguments n get buay song over projs. im juz glad that now we can crap with friends. if one were to ask what i have truly learnt from this whole event, i would say that good friends doesnt necessarily equate to good working partners. hais. so much tears today. hais. i still dont understand how it all ended up this way. i sian liao la. juz leave things as it is. i dun wanna rake things up anymore. i cant take it liao.

2007-02-04T01:41:00.001-08:00

you touched my lips the way he did.

so yummylicious.

a hint of nostalgia entails, but it's different, cos it came from you and i know it was out of love.

you know, u're learning fast.

you've managed to incorporate thrill and passion with your gentle loving ways.

keep this going. yes, pls keep this going.

and he shall forever remain out of my mind.

so yummy-licious.

2007-01-24T05:21:00.000-08:00

it's the things that you do.

really cant get you out of my mind.

the first time we met, you surprised me with holding my hand on bike on expressway at full speed.

then it's the way you blow into my ears.

the way you kiss.

it's your expression.

it's the way you tilt my chin up with your finger, exuding such boyish charm.

the way you crack me up with your 'wtf' comments, ah-beng style.

the way you stroke my hair like im your little girl.

the way you were rough to me, i act hurt, and the way you pamper me after that.

and you totally surprised me by what you did to me on the bike the last day we met.

the way that you are so bad, the whole world just knows that you're bad news, but yet i still wanna spend the day with you cos you really make me WANT to unleash the bad-ness in me.

you make me want to be bad.

imagine your prowess.

no, it's not love. it's something else.

i just couldn't quite put my finger to it.

but i know you're enjoying the ride as well ehh?

so we'll keep this going.

all i know is that this wouldn't be my last time meeting you.

you horrid bad-ass guy.

i guess the chinese saying is right. if the man ain't bad, he aint deserve no lovin'.

except this time, im keeping my heart with me.

let's just enjoy the fun while it lasts.

get on the ride, you bad boy.

2006-12-09T12:08:00.000-08:00

my heart aches.

the numbing-aching sensation is killing me.

and i dare not sleep. cos im scared that i'll have the nightmare once again.

why do u have to give that to her? don't you know its significance? dont u know how important it is to me? i know it isnt much, but it really mattered to me.

the silly thing is that it is just a dream, but it really seemed so real. too real.

please, okay? don't give her such a gift, and tell me u dont know its significance. it's misleading, and she might think it suggests something too. dont do this to me.

i really hope this doesnt come true.

2006-11-06T08:18:00.000-08:00

you know what babes?

i think im absolutely beautiful in God's eyes.

doncha agree im just gorgeous. just like you my lovely friends.

let the nitwits dwell in their own pathetic misery.

2006-10-02T09:57:00.000-07:00

* 29th October 2006 *

My wonderful honey,

today is the day when we celebrated our 2 yr 7 mths of being together.

today is the day where u presented me with the beautiful glass display set, and called me Cinderella.

Your very own Cinderella.

And more importantly,

today is the day which you proposed to me.

and yes, I promise. I give you my word.

Till the day comes, I'll continue to love you.

When the day comes, I'll just love you even more.

I promise. I really do.

I could have sworn that my eyes moistened when I saw u go thru all the detailled plannings.

I thought this was some sappy gimmic that serial dramas severely overuse, but no.

Apperently my eyes started welling up (juz a teeny weeny bit). I guess it was the sudden surge of emotions to see how a guy could be so head over heels in love with u he is able to throw his freedom away, to see how much a guy can affirm his love for you by making such an important decision, and to feel a welcoming sense of comfort that you know this will be the guy who will be taking care of you for the rest of your life. Such overwhelming and powerful emotions.

Yes, I'll be your Cinderella.

Now and forever.

iloveyoualways. -muacks- *

2006-09-11T09:33:00.000-07:00

yozyoz.. just a quick update..

i am assigned to Niche Recruitment Consultants Pte Ltd located at International Plaza for my SIP attachment. Those who dont mind coming down to Tanjong Pagar, or working around there, let's date for lunch!! =D my job's frm 9am to 6pm, 5-day workweek. went to check out the place today, pretty offical-looking.

next, both my honey's picture and mine has been chosen for the S2006 mural !! yays~!! this will definately be memorable, but too bad they didn't put us on same mural. oh wells. one must know her limits.

and, i went to layer my hair and cut fringe at Chapter 2 located at Bugis yesterday! hmm.. okok la not bad change.. hahaha..

oh, and one last thing, a TRANS just sent me a smile through freindster!! how cool is THAT. bet u cant beat it. xD

2006-09-09T11:02:00.000-07:00

been doing many many things lately.. really a lot!! haha but if u ask me to list down all, i have to be very honest with you.. i forgot liao!! haahahahha~ too long nvr blog + stm = me lorrs hahaha~
so i'll just blog abt yesterday =D

yesterday was real fun.. we gathered around for a 'farewell party' for daisy at clarke quay. daisy and ronald ( like DUH), peilin and jesher (WOO!!!), shireen with her bf, me and him, plus yetun and jacky went to this place called "marrakesh". quite an interesting place with charming drink names, i might add. haha~ now let's see if i can rmb what everyone ordered.. jacky: that highly addictive orange flavoured smoke with nicotine + some black beer thingy shireen: 1 shot of something, forgot. shireen's bf: something that resembled mango pudding drink. at least that's what it looked like to me. hahaha~ yetun: long-island tea. green coloured drink with lime slice. tastes not bad. ronald: 1 shot of slippery nipple, but he kept hogging jacky's orange smoke thingy. think he's addicted. dasiy control him pls. dasiy: chocolate vodka or something and a cocktail named 'i love you you love me' for us and peilin and jesher. chatting and jesting the whole night away. den shireen ordered a Waterfall for daisy! oh man u should have seen it.. oh gosh! i couldnt believe she drank it!! .. hmm, and perhaps the unglam part of the night was daisy puking after the drink. everyone was quite high, esp the girls, all giggly and stuff. can u imagine daisy giggling?? lols. anyw yea we parted here.. at abt 2.30am, and jk and i decided to walk ard a few rounds before hailing a taxi to cineleasure. "little man" movie at 3.35am!! oh gosh, we were THAT on and high. hahaha.. yeps, pretty funny movie, the usual lame stuff, which ended at 5.30am. walked out to orchard mrt station, found out mrt service started liao. so we took train home.. he sent me back. in the end i reached home at 7am. hahahahhaha. yea im such a notti girl i know.. but i only have the night to enjoy. after that no chace liao, cos got SIP!! must be good girl.. hahhaa ( skally the boss bring us go clubbing. YEAH RIGHT) alrights, i think i better end here, 2.48am liaos.. tmr still hav to work!! ..and cut hair. hahaha. im gonna do layering!! =DD

2006-08-26T09:09:00.001-07:00

everything is so blah now. blah. blah. blah.

oh u know what? now no more guys jio-ing me liaos.

dont ask me if i shoo-ed them away or the other way round, i have no idea.

guys are so passe. (lucky daisy never read my blog otherwise she'd be so sensitive to this word. i forgot to tell her i was ONCE a fan of 5566)

ah heck abt guys now. who cares when i've got the GIRLS! (oh man that sounds so wrong hahahaha)

yahh. whatever. as long as cloud loves me. till the end of time right girl? xD

2006-08-14T10:11:00.000-07:00

9th August:

missed the whole parade show for National Day. was slogging like mad for HR project. deadline tmr. everything settled and completed at 6am. edited executive summary, did NWC part. lols. am damn proud that i can actually BE so hardworking. =D

10th August:

like i said, didnt sleep. went straight for MA lec. turns out that huimin,weiyi and I were the ONLY noble ones who actually went for the lec in our class. guai till siao!! =_= heehee~ went to watch "click" after that. a really fun and meaningful movie. Highly recommended!

11th August:

all the hype abt him and that girl and her frens going clubbing and midnite movie. HAHA in the end the whole plan fell through. serves him right. hehs.

12th August:

GCC Dining Etiquette Workshop + lunch buffet at SAKURA!! hahahaha~ damn nice.. Ken was nice to me for once!! even greet me good morning with a cheery smile and such. overall quite friendly laa. heee~ am really happy that at least he start to give me respect liaos n_n Hui min and Diana still no GCC tee. owe April $22 and Stephanie $10 for the workshop. Ken and Alan left early. took bus back with Nicholas and Gerald. was totally crapping with them all the way haha. really hope after this Gerald will have a more favourable impression of me as Head of Subcomm.. went to work after that.. Alan said he will come fetch me home one.. pangseh me.. >< haha. but he got no obligations laa haha so nvm..

13th August:

omg sales was the best ever! great sales! highest commission ever earned since i started this job. hahaha..

oh ya almost forgot, was kana disturbed by a guy named James aka Snail thru msn. silly guy, i knew it all along lor.. lols.. ehh so childish cannn~ make me sleep at 3am gotta wake at 6am.. 3hrs' slp.. kns..

14th August:

went for Sports Club AGM with Daisy, Ronald, Jesher, Jiahao, Aaron and Geoffrey. Not bad la at least got to know Geoffrey better thru this event.. by talking abt GIRLS. =_=" Jesher norminated me to be his assistant head in the Induction Program. Ehh thankssssss man. Said he sian of guys wanted to work with me. yaaaaaaaaaa righttttttttttttt. another =_=.

2006-08-05T10:28:00.000-07:00

events have certainly taken a strange turn from where we left off.

right.

so.. now u have 4 girls liking you. alright. fine. what do u treat this as? some kind of competition?

damn.

and the worse thing is that two of them are so goddess-like, with guys pawing all over them kind.

what kind of fight do you think i can put up with them.

fine, go chiong with her. FINE.

i still havent forgotten the time when u told me that u were playing basketball when u were actually with her. yes, so what if u and another guy were with her. my point is that WHY did u have to lie to me that u were playing bball when u were with HER?

fishy ain't it.

and i don't even want to start digging deeper.

AND LASTLY,

your best friend has a wonderful impression of two of the girls. how nice of him. esp since his impression of me hasnt changed since the beginning of this century.

damn.

yes, four girls. so what.

SO WHAT???????

2006-07-23T09:13:00.000-07:00

make that three.

still nothing from you.

2006-07-23T07:58:00.000-07:00

two guys.

two guys popping the question.

yet,

no anxiety. no anger. no sadness. no questions.

im wondering.

do you even CARE at all?

well, it's not the first time you are exhibiting such calmness anyway.

they're not going to come and go like those in the past.

this time round, i WORK with them.

"who cares anyway" right?

I CARE.

contemplating on the "attached but available" phrase. -muses-

2006-07-02T03:35:00.000-07:00

Hi people,

I've just uploaded my picx in the "about" section. pls go take a look if you are free. and my apologies deduan & leechin, somehow i dont seem to have photos taken with the both of you! whahaha~ sum other time bah i guess. yupps. Enjoy the picx!! =D

2006-06-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

okay, i know i hurt my head real hard in a collision with a 21 yr old guy named Benjamin last friday that sent me flying and bleeding, and got sent to Changi General Hospital.

BUT.

That's not what I want to blog about.

In those critical moments when everything happening around me was a blur flurry, I was amazed at how surreal I felt at that time. You know, like everything and everyone was in a whirl and you are the only one in standstill and each second felt like minutes. Yeah, that was how I felt at that time... damn, I thought i was going to die!

..and... i thought of many things that I have not accomplished in my life.

such as..

being a successful woman in the corporate world..

making lots of money..

writing feature articles for magazines..

being a covershoot model..

more drama or theatre performances..

making a speech and presentation in front of a large crowd..

more time with family and friends.. I really treasure my grandma.. I need more time with everyone..

more time to relax.. go overseas.. Gold Coast.. Australia..

just..

a more fulfilling life.

I was also wondering, if I had died just then, who would have wept over their loss?

God, Grandpa in heaven, Dad, Mum, Ah ma, Bro, Dear.

and probably some friends in disbelief, who cant accept this cruel fact.

like.. my closest cousin, my extended family, Shujun, Cloud, Weiyi, Daisy, Huimin, Julia.

would this be considered a life worth living?

to put it more blatently, am I worth remembering?

swirling thoughts.

I guess I'd never know.

2006-06-20T13:07:00.000-07:00

today...

i almost lost my wallet.

left it at Jupiter Cafe.

took me abt 30min to realise that it's gone.

rushed back to Jupiter like a mad lady freaking out..

just to see that there is no wallet in sight.

damn.

damn.

i was so certain i had lost it.

i reckon i'd just ask the workers there just in case someone returned.

i never did believe that i wld get anything out of asking, but i just asked for the sake of asking anyway.

and...

and...

a MIRACLE happened.

the lady boss took out a pink wallet and daftly placed it into my disbelieving hands.

my wallet was safely returned to me!

better yet, not a single thing was missing frm the wallet.

yes, not even the $$$.

omg.

omg.

till now i still cant believe it!

God is good. God is good.

I cant thank him enough.

honestly.

all i cld think of was, how much it took for me to be able to get back my wallet with all things intact.

you see,

it takes an honest person to feel compelled to return it.

assuming the returner has friends beside him/her, he/she may have to get pass the peer pressure to splurge on their findings instead of returning it.

if this happens, the reutrner wld have to convince them that it is wrong to do so in order to successfully hand the wallet over to the workers.

the wallet in the hands of the workers, they cld choose if they wanted to report the found item, or to splurge its contents.

it takes integrity to announce the found item to everyone working there.

when everyone there knows there a wallet with money to splurge on, it takes self-restraint to stop themselves.

and..

when i approached them asking if anyone had found my wallet,

they could easily have said no.

because it is in their hands, it can be considered their property.

but no.

the lady boss chose to return it to me.

now you know why i thank God.

it is really not an easy feat to pass the temptation test.

and my wallet has passed through the hands so many people.

and i STILL can get my wallet back, with everything intact.

kindness and honesty still exsit in this world after all.

2006-06-10T10:37:00.000-07:00

LOVE makes you pretty.

yes it has been proven.

a thousand times yummier than Hershey's chocolates!

away with SKII and MTM and what nots.

LOVE is here to stay!

i dont know how i should describe my feelings now.

it feels like..

..like having strawberries while splashing around and laughing in the pouring rain.

..like the crisp morning breeze that energises and soothes you at the same time.

..like the totally yummy-licious feeling of having a banana smoothie while snuggling with your pillow.

..like the combined feeling of the above-mentioned feelings all mixed together.

like... NO OTHER.

I just wanna jump around on my bed in giddy childlike happiness and smack you with a pillow, challenging you to a pillow fight!

love is indescribable. love is trust. love is pure. love is innocent.

love is WONDERFUL. if love is a dream, i never wanna wake up.

now THAT'S love. =D

2006-05-17T21:21:00.000-07:00

oh man.. i say until so obvious liaos.. i got stead liaos leh.. how come u still dont understand arh?if u dont have all these listed below i cannot accept you as stead one leh u know.. sorry but my criteria quite high one.. aiyo~ i put in easier terms for you lahh..

mayb chim chim angmoh u dun understand.. nvm.. i speak in singlish maybe it will help u understand better, ok?

- the type of guy i like hor, must be yandao yandao de. not yandao i dun like. cos i scared see the face too long i sian 1/2.. no more feel liao how? so hor, the yandao part serves to be the backup attraction plan for me to last long long with u lah.

-the type of guy i like must be quite chim chye dun really hold grudges de. cos i sometimes got attitute prob or mood swings so behave very bitchy or xia lan de. so he must be understanding enough.

-we must be able to tok long long abt anything all topics oso bao kah liao type. dont like keep secret keep secret like that one. i dont like. as if dont trust me with secret like that.

-he cannot keep borrowing money from me hor. this type i really really dont like. eat soft rice one. if come to me act ke lian borrow money from me and spend on frens treat them this treat them that hor, wah lau eh, u knn better dont let me find out hor.

-he must give me princess treatment one hor. must pick me up, carry my bag, pay for food, pay for movie, (shopping nvm i pay on my own) and send me home to my doorstep one hor. oso must call me often. and dun ps ppl suddenly say wad wanna go chiong with bros de. like bro so important can override stead. i dont like.

-i like guy the eyes can shoot electricity one. must recharge hor. (:

-i know this is ironic, but the guy bio chiobu is can bio lah, but dont let me see it hor. unless i ask u to bio den u can be authorised to bio them in my sight.

-when i ask for comments, tell me what i want to hear. this is the ultimate art. you have to decide at that very moment if i wanted your honest opinion or just assurance. chim hor? cannot tikam, cos choose wrong u sure jialat one.

-i like the feeling hor, when i intro ppl my stead to other ppl that time i feel very proud one. like, wah, wa eh tah po jin tok kong leh that type of feel. of cos he must oso feel his charboh never throw his face lah.

-aiyah, wa kah li kong hor, the type of guy is wan is like superman like that one.. a lot of ppl wan to find but very hard to find one.. wa jiu si an ni imm jim eh..bo pian.. really cannot lah.. somemore i got stead liaos.. really cannot ok? wu an ni juay chio bu.. nxt time i intro u lahh okay? dont shy hor i intro u chiobu!! (:

2006-05-15T06:23:00.000-07:00

so many stuff going on all of a sudden.

tmr MRND seminar workshop presentation.
and GCC dry run.

wed CEM seminar workshop presentation.
and GCC actual event.

thurs need gown to PA send invitations to 700+ ppl.

fri got HR lect and Kelly Services.

wahh busy busyy~~

oh ya btw i have joined the GCC's main comm alr... as Head of Sub-Comm... but not official yet lahh so pls dun spread the word ard~ =)

now i must learn to chiong like Daisy!!!
*freaks out instantly**

yahh. that's so like daisy already. hehheh. x))

2006-05-11T12:29:00.000-07:00

now the whole world will know how to melt my heart within 10 seconds by reading this post. thanks to shujun. whahahaa~ not blaming her lahh. its kinda fun. (:

if you have been tagged, you are to come up with seven qualities of your perfect lover. specify the gender. then, list down and tag seven another seven bloggers on their pages. if you've been tagged, you need not do this again. lets start.

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Gender: Male Species

*/ he must have boyish charm and be able to make me feel safe BUT i may also twirl him round my little finger if i want to.

*/ he must be able to change from a hilarious joker to a serious discussion partner to Mr. Romantic within a snap of my fingers to cater to my mood swings.

*/ he must be talkative and funny. not buts abt it. its a requirement. it is mandatory.

*/ he must give women (ahem, namely yours truly) due respect and equal standing ground when making decisions. simply cos women are the stronger and smarter gender. siistas unite!! (:

*/ he must be a gentleman. no going dutch for meals. Never. and a small gift would be a gd incentive.

*/ he must not impose any of his thinking on me. instead, he should encourage my individuality and let me grow to my fullest potential on my own.

*/ he must feel that he's the luckiest guy on earth to have me by his side. whahahahhaha~

now there. i've completed my list. is it too much to ask for? of course not. i've found him already. =D

2006-05-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

i've been HARASSED.

how can u just come up behind me and start stroking my hair like that??!!

and i dont even KNOW you.

just get your ugly claws off me.

ugh.

2006-04-26T10:13:00.000-07:00

i want my pay.

i demand for my pay.

u promised u will give me my pay before school reopens.

and looked what happened?

3 whole days after sch has reopened n still no news of the money.

argh.

fucking MAD.

what happened to it?!

2006-04-21T10:02:00.000-07:00

met up with my tp dearies yesterdae.

MAN IT WAS FANNNNNNNTASTIC !!!

we r definately girls who know how to pamper n treat ourselves well.

first we went to this ktv at bedok.. $6 per person only + one free bubble tea drink!! whahaha... abt 5hrs not bad sia.. den was damn fun la.. cos got some songs like "lian ai-ing" when we all juz totally nv use the mike at all n juz sing loud loud together n even sway to the music.. super nice super high super shuang!!!! whahahahaha... like really high rush that type.. hahaha... fun fun fun!!!!!

hmm... by the time we sing finish le abt 7pm le.. den deduan and leechin intro go "bedok 85" makan.. they say until our saliva wanna flow out liao la what stingray seafood n satay n stuff... hahaha.. so we took 17 there lor.. wah.. really got alot of stores.. den in the end cloud n i share one $8 stingray.. leechin ate satay beehoon.. deduan ate some noodle thingy with soup.. weiyi ate hokkian mee.. den we oso got order one plate of satay den all of us share.. hahahha.. very de shuang hor?? stomach rumbling or saliva start flowing out le mah? hees.. really enjoyed myself a lot yesterday.. super high happie n shuang... somemore cloud gave me a pair of earrings made by her.. so sweet.. wah.. really one of the perfect days in my life liao.. hahahhaa

2006-04-17T10:18:00.000-07:00

reached workplace at 2pm today since the outlet in-charge is on leave. whahaha~ slowly take my own sweet time super shuang. then while i was setting up my Plush booth this guy by the name of James approached me, and introduced himself. "Hi my name is James and I would like to make friends with you.. erm.. no.. more than friends with you... can i?? let's go for a coffee break now?" HUH. what kind of pickup line is that man. firstly, you dont go ard saying u wanna b more than friends when saying ur first sentence to someone. secondly, what do u mean by "can i????" darn was really resisting myself to say a blunt NO straight in his face leh. when trying to pick up someone u do not allow the person to have the chance to trample all over u n hurt urself in the process. thirdly, any green-eyed baboon can see that im working lor. u tink i can go for a coffee break meh... sigh. this guy has got a lot to learn man.

then in the afternoon the James frm kelly services gave me a call n told me the meeting timing has changed. damn. totally ruined my plans sia.

this world sure has a lot of weird n irritating ppl by the name of James. ....and to think that a few years ago i was seriously considering naming my future son James. bahhh!!!

2006-04-15T20:16:00.000-07:00

bought another two tees yest- one Quiksilver n the other Roxy.

seesh. still haven bought ALL i wanted yet.

no money cos pay haven come yet!! and sch is reopening soon!!!

seesh man. den wads the point of working if i dun get paid n cant go shopping ah.. no fun at all sia..

i still gotta buy at least the ebase's boots ($69), one pair of black slippers ($20) n another pair of levi's jeans ($149)!!

argh. i wanna buy i wanna buy~~~ >< !

2006-04-08T10:17:00.000-07:00

went on a Billabong shopping spree!!

bought two Billabong tees and a wallet for my darlingg. hees. am feeling so satisfied now. xD

2006-04-05T00:57:00.000-07:00

whee- !!!!

im offically not working at Taka Watson's anymore!!

im so happie. its been like goodness knows how many days i've been working at the Taka outlet.. been waiting for Diana to arrange for me to work at other places for so long.. awaiting anxiously for the Taka fair to end.. counting down to the end of the month, was super looking forward to receiving my new schedule with my new location. but alas. April's schedule STILL at Taka all the way. argh! cant take it anymore!! the management is driving me nuts, esp the stupid Agnus n Wendy.. think they're like so big there.. always bio-ing us to see if got anything to baotoh.. wah lao ehh.. cant stand it lor. Even Eric the supervisor at Taka told me the management there is strict. seesh. luckily, luckily, Diana my in-charge is like so understanding lah. i approached her, holding the schedule and i was like erm.. erm... dun really know how to start. the 1st thing she said was " u wanna request for a change to another outlet isit?" i kinda winced n smiled (a wincing smile!! wonder how i did that. hahaha) the nxt sentence she said was, " ok, i understand.. is Suntec ok for you?" wahh.. so nice sia.. still ask if its ok for me.. hahaha.. aiyo CX.. dun scold her kanina diana ler lah.. i tink she quite nice to "shang liang" de.. hmm. yupp. so it was decided. i will be at Suntec Watson's starting thursday, all the way until 19th Apr.

Todae juz 5 min before i got released from work i had a pleasent surprise. Lee Chin, Wei Yi and DeDuan came by the outlet to see me!! hahaha.. treat them orange juice. hahahha.. hmm turns out that they were actually going for some sort of dinner, n were waiting for their friend Adam and also Daisy!! Hmm yah so since i know like all of them except one they ask me go along too.. whahahawalked all over Taka trying to decide where to eat. in the end settled down at NYDC. ambience quite nice lah. yepp. so it was kinda like a mini gathering for us.. cloud we sure missed you!!!!! ur name surfaced in our conversation for a couple of times. we really missed ur company!! haha.. well juz to inform all u guys out there.. the 6 of us chalked up a grand total of $150++ for juz dinner n deserts. big eaters aren't we. n i still owe Weiyi money! sighs. no money mah. bo pian. got money i wun work liao loh!! work so hard for wad sia.. hahahaha...so i b returning Weiyi the $$$ when sch reopens .. sorry ah Weiyi.. took some pics. n tok abt some funny MRT stuff with Lee Chin n Weiyi.. n oso abt Daisy's Aust trip. great catching up, but it was alr v late when we finished our meal. so end up din go anywhere lor. wah go out w them sure broke de. earlier on they went kbox lor! -jealous- hahaha. nice day overall lah.

on my way home with Weiyi (we both take MRT) my ex boss Mr. Loh called me, n told me he had an overdue cheque with him. can u imagine??? abt 8-9mths ago de thing he now den call me n tell me?? wth- den i told him ok lor i b going optics tmr go collect my cheque. den he oso asked if i can go back work at optics lah. wah. sian diao sia. crapped up some stuff.. juz dun really feel like going back work. tmr i tk cheque ler sure zao fast fast de.. cos they confirm ask alot of qns n persuade me to go back work.. i dowan liaos.. year 3 starting..no time for work liaos.. sighs. somemore my Plush contract ends on 19th Apr, which means i hav a few daya to enjoy b4 sch starts. den Mr. Loh wan me to go work at optics on those last few days. oh please. Plush's rate is $6.80 per hr while Optics' rate is $6 per hr leh.. if wanna work all the way oso work in Plush lor.. more slack oso. yepp. aiyah. duno lah. i see how lor. juz hope tmr i can take cheque den zao. hehe~

oh yes. before i forget.

i bought Levi's jeans today!!!

hehe. i juz had to do that. whahaha.

2006-03-31T09:06:00.000-08:00

went to touchup my hair cos it really sucks. really dun look like salon dye one lor. this time round though, i got the lady boss Sandy to touch up the hair colour for me. DIRECTOR SERVICE FOR FREE OF CHARGE. woohoo.

had an arguement with him yest. he hasnt called me since. its been 24 hrs. -waiting- its his off day today lor. dim even come see me. -.-

one interesting thing happened today-- i saw my FIRST ex today while working!! i was at Taka Watson's, chatting as usual.. when i saw this person waving from the corner of my eye. i turned to look. OMG. it was my ex across the asle saying hi to me!!! omg. i could have fainted. soooo long nv see him alr. like i tink got abt 7.5YEARS. n he walk by still can recognise me. had he not waved, i wouldn't even haf noticed him cos i was so engrossed with my chatting. LOL. still quite yandao lor he.. (of cos lah, or else how to attract so many gals b his steads)..he was wearing a black adidas jacket.. juz like the one i bought for my dear. whahaha. den beside him standing two girls.. but i was so engulfed by the thought that we were finally meeting after 7.5yrs, i became so fixtated on him tt i actually forgot to take a look at the girls beside him. n u ppl know how 38 i am with these kind of things n oso i always see girls one mah. so how could i possibly not taken even a glimpse of the two girls??? oh man. sad. i guess i was thinking c guy more impt anyw he's gonna drop her soon. LOLs~ soooo bitchy. but really la. he v flirt one sure very fast change gf de. hmm.. mayb tts why i din bother to see bah.. hmm.. ya lor..tts all for now. juz super happie tt he still rmb me after so long!!!! hehehehehehe... *hua chiiii** here r some pics for you to enjoy. X)

2006-03-27T09:28:00.000-08:00

Five things to mention:-

ONE. i went to a salon n freaking dyed my hair for $108.

TWO. i bought a $20 anniversary gift for honeyy.

THREE. IM SO FREAKING POOR. i only had S$0.10 left in my wallet. had to borrow $50 from Dad.

FOUR. i still need to go buy saline and hamster food. by tmr.

FIVE. DAMN IM SO DEAD.

2006-03-23T09:40:00.000-08:00

Jane, you're a Sympathetic Sidekick

No one ever accused you of not having a soft side. And that's why friends flock to your sympathetic ear and well-thought-out advice. You are tuned in to the world around you, and you are always looking for ways to bring people together and enjoy each other's company. While some people might have one or two close friends, you like to spread your wings and socialize with any number of people. You are open-hearted and free-spirited, making it easy for you to find common ground with anyone you meet. Keep up the good work — everyone could use a friend like you.

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Jane, in your Cinderella story, you'd get to Kiss the Prince

You don't need the pouffy dress, the fancy hair, or the 3-inch glass heels. A romantic soul like you just wants a guy who's a true companion, a good friend, a real prince. And if he's hot? All the better. But ultimately, you know that home is where the heart is. Which is probably why you surround yourself with good friends you can take care of and laugh with — friends who will do the same for you.But that doesn't keep you from fantasizing about the perfect relationship. It's not that you don't have your feet firmly planted on the ground. It's just that you're not afraid to shoot high. Or wish upon a shooting star. So keep reaching for your goals, Cinderella. If you do, your happily ever after can't be far away. And you can seal that with a kiss.

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2006-03-17T11:03:00.000-08:00

dear bloggie,

i went to shop around at orchard area today. saw a gazillion things i wanna buy. at far east. at wisma. at taka. at heeren. and at cine. all clothings and bags. yes. although i have tons of them at home alr. but i still wanna buy more!! when all i really need is a simple pair of black slippers. =X oops. hehheh. just hope to complete my promoter job asap, hurry get my $1300, den can enjoy enjoy enjoy!!! whahaha~ tink $1300 oso not enuff for me to spend lor, at the rate im going.. hehheh. aiyoh, dun care so much ler, complete my work den say! haha.. im dreaming of freshly printed dollar notes alr.... $$$..

yours sincerely,
your Fashion Victim owner

2006-03-16T12:32:00.000-08:00

suddenly realised that i nvr update u all on me n my honeyy's 2nd year anniversary and oso my bdae celebrations!! whahaha.. paiseh paiseh..shall update u all now..

29-02-2006

woohoo. our 2nd yr anniversary falls on this date. what-? what's that protest i hear? okay okay.. fine.. so there's no such date. we actually celebrated our anni on 1-03-2006. haiyoh.. bo pian mah.. the month no 29th den how to celebrate?? hais.. no choice mah.. leap year leh.. so choose 1st march lorr. whahahas~ now let me try to rmb what we did.. hmm. its been awhile.. met dearr at abt 5pm++ cos earlier on he went to fix his computer with his fren kie min at sim lim square. wah sian lor. hai wo wait for him for one whole hour. -_- but since it's anniversary, shall not make a big fuss out of it. after all everytime our outings is he wait for me de. whahahas.

yepp so we met at bugis.. go makan.. den walked ard.. window shopping a bit.. haha.. no $$ to buy things la esp after buying the presents. hmm ya den we found a place to sit dwn cos my feet pain lah.. wearing boots.. ai sui mai mia.. hahaha.. den time to exchange pressies ler!!! my honeyy gave me a ZINC bag.. very cool.. hehe thanks dearr.. i like the stripes super a lot!! whahaha.. den i gib my deardearr a blue IP ZONE jacket + badges of our neoprints + cookies. hehe.. hope u like the pressies dearr..ur 3rd jacket frm me!! whahaha.. i recently siao one.. keep giving my dear jackets.. now currently is one red n black Adidas jacket, one black Adidas jacket and now this blue IP Zone jacket. XP

time to go watch movie liao. wah our this anni very special, so muz watch movie in a special way. u know the burger king got promotion, duno wad eat 3 value meals can exchange one couple ticket to watch movie. den very good leh, can let us choose either wan watch "the producers" or "underworld revolution". siao lah, this one is a no-brainer. of cos we choose the "underworld revolution" lah!! haahhaa.. den falls on todae. wah so happie. celebrate in such a special way leh free seating de. hahaha.. den only all the couples can go. so fun!! both of us very de kiasu.. we go 20min b4 the movie starts.. to make sure we get gd seating. whahaha.. tick tock tick tock.. waiting outside c many many couples.. got all kinds.. tall de short de intellectual de wah so many kinds i all bio. hahaha.. den time to go in ler.. wah.. once the door open.. we all CHIONGGGGGG inside ah!!!! wah like as if inside got gold bar to snatch that kind of chiong. wah seh. now i know singaporeans damn kiasu de. incl us lah. whahaha~ managed to get a couple seating. wah shuang lehhs like mini couch like that can share seat de. not juz those can lift up arm rest only, but literally share a seat. heh heh. nicenice can hugg~!!!! :D

hmm.. seated liao still gotta wait for 15min b4 movie starts.. look ard.. see the couples beside us all not romantic de. the left couple keep toking loud loud den like complain complain like that.. the stupid woman oso trampled on my toes on her way to the loo.. so not v gd impression of her lah.. den the couple on the right..altho they got hug but their faces got very tense n weird expression.. like not really enjoying each other's company.. den tok is one-word sentence de.. no "mo qi" at all lor. i still tink we r the BESTEST couple!!! my dearr was like sitting down.. den i hug him my head on his chest.. den him stroking my hair n shoulders.. can hear his heartbeat beating steadily..den when i look up he will smile down at me de.. hahhaha so "lang man"!!! den he held up my hand to his lips and gave me a kiss. wahhh~~~ simply let me swoon to siao can.. wahh.. our 2nd year anniversary leh~~~ 2 years liao still so loving.. heh heh. still smiling all d way when i recall.. yupp.. thats abt it lah.. den late ler so he sent me home..thats how we celebrate our anni lor.. (:

10-03-2006

:::::- MY BIRTHDAE~!!!! -::::::

whahaha yeaps its my birthdae!!! it falls on a friday, so dearr is the 1st to celebrate it with me!! hahaha.. went orchard since go bugis so many times lerr.. dearr said he got everything planned.. so for once i juz sit back relax no nid to plan anything! hahaha.. we went to walk ard.. juz casual gia gia ard nia.. den suddenly dearr surprised me by saying lets go to sakae eat! den i was like what the-? siao so ex!! den dearr said nvm, once a yr only mah.. muz pamper me.. whahaha~ thanks leh dearr.. over there we ate many many dishes.. its student's buffet, so can dun need care abt price. eat till shuang can! been so long since i ate jap food liao.. den drinks oso free flow one.. not bad not bad. den in the midst of eating, dearr passed me my bdae present.. wah big big box.. frm precious thots de.. wonder what it is. slowly open wrapper carefully... wah!!! decor ornaments from Precious Moments!!! wah seh.. so big box.. confirm cost alot of $$$ de lor.. wah.. reli stunned duno wad to say sia~ somemore dearr say its last set ler.. no more liaos..(hmm means cnt check price.. -_- ) hmm den cont eat eat eat... eat till super full ler.. abt 23 or 24 plates i tink.. very zhang!! haha.. go counter pay.. c the total amount adds up to abt $45.. wah. abit xin tong for dearr.. juz one meal onli pay so much.. hais~

after that we go walk ard Heeren there.. see got Adidas sales.. wah not bad leh the things there.. nice.. i like the jackets esp. so super nice lorr!!! but dear seemed abit sian of Adidas alr.. mayb is cos i gave him too many Adidas stuff bah? or isit the brand reminded him of the jacket incident agn?? hais.. kns~ shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu.. giv him so many branded stuff ler still say sian. wth. i bought for him more branded stuff thn i bought myself lorr. hies. den oso got go HMV ealk walk. dearr tell me actually he wan gib me the S.H.E. collector's figurines de.. but cnt find..so in d end nvr buy.. whahhaa.. hmm den we go back to cine.. go watch movie!! haha.. today we choose "date movie".. wah seh super lame show siah.. but very nice as well!! hahah.. damn funni~ :D but then its fri lah so tix cost $19.. wah seh sibeh ex lor.. hais.. heart pain pain agn.. but dare not say anymore.. say so many times later he irritated. he wanna pamper me jiu let him pamper me lorrs. whahaha~ den very late at nite ler.. so dearr sent me home. so happie.. darlingg i know u spent alot on me cos u sayang me. thanks a lot ah deardear~ xie xie ni!! i really enjoyed myself on my bdae.. thank you so much dear!!

11-03-2006

went out to choose bdae cake with dad at causeway pt. got ard 4 famouus bakeries there.. prima deli, four leaves, bangawan solo and bread talk.. in the end i chose a blackforest birthday cake from Four Leaves that costs $30.. its a freshcream cake with flakes of choc in the middle and the circumference is decorated with berries.. inside its a chocolate sponge cake with a really yummy thick n delicious cream adorned with berries.. wow.. it really tastes gd lor.. super nice..thanks dad thanks mum!! hahaha.. den my bro gave me my bdae present: a Jay Chou concert DVD!!! wah.. i that time anyhow hint hint only u really go buy ah?? wah.. hahahha.. thanks ah bro..thanks.. i know u initially wanna go buy the Huo Yuan Jia dvd one.. but i last time got mention to my fren b4 liao den i scared she buy..hahah.. den got duplicates how? so get this better. whahahaha~ so gd hor presents can choose de. hees. yepp. had a great time with my family too that day. thanks for celebrating with me!! :)

13-03-2006

my frens opened a chalet at pasir ris.. 4days 3nights. woohoo~ went to thon on the 1st night. was super fun! that day we were juz gathering ard the tv in the chalet chatting yakking when suddenly weiyi, cloud and dd suddenly came from the kitchen carrying two slices of cakes singing happie birthday to me!!! wth-!!! was super surprised n gan dong.. kinda flabbergasted n at a loss of what to do when they approached me with the cake.. whahaha..yuan lai juz now when we were buying groceries at NTUC they were secretly planning to buy bdae cake for me as well!! wahh.. so nice hor.. den they can me use mouth take out candle lah.. daisy still push in deep deep somemore.. kns.. hahaha.. lucky i hurry siam skully kana facial cream den chum. whahaha.. cut the cakes into small slices n shared the cake. they apologised kinda sheepishly for juz buying two slices. apologise for wad?? i thought the gesture was damn sweet. for juz remembering its my bdae. for juz making the effort to surprise me. for juz celebrating with me as my freinds. muahh dearies. thanks so much yahh??? hehehe~ den spent the whole nite chatting with them w/o slping.. so nice.. we played "zhong ji mi mah", den who kanna will suffer a Truth or Dare fate. but so late in the night ler, we all opt for truth lah. so it became kinda a sharing session for all of us. whahaha~ nice leh. found out quite a lot of stuff. heh hehs. tok all d way till 6am++. den go watch sunrise. wah super romantic nehhs!! hahahaha.. reli nice lah.. nxt time muz haf these kind of outings more often. hahaha.. really rare to find ppl like all of you. all so "on" and crazy n individualistic n yet able to click so well at d same time. cloud. weiyi. daisy. deduan. huimin. thank you all so much!!!! XD hmm. and not forgetting to thank those who sent me a bdae testii as well. yepps. thanks everyone!! thanks for making my bdae such a wonderful n memorable experience.. xie xie ni men!! *curtsey** hahaha..

IJ + bungs = chaos

2006-03-14T18:57:00.000-08:00

WAH~!!!!! got ppl near my house playing CHIJ songs leh!! on so loud somemore. but cant make out which household is it.. heh heh. suddenly realise its been awhile since i heard those songs alr. den i "dao piah", go join in the fun lor! whaaahaha~ now my house blasting with CHIJ songs. so weird. whahhahaha... hmm. suddenly instilled with IJ values agn after so long. so strange yet so familiar. am reminded of my composure, shall sit properly n behave well when i go out later. hmm. see?? see??? this is what CHIJ songs do to you. brainwashing, clensing. nxt thing u know i'll be buying tons of tissue packets from all needy ppl i see! tsk... why ah.. i really wonder.. i know what i've said is a bit extreme, but i really do straighten my poise, behave less rowdily and actually feel an urge to help some poor old needy person out there. the power of song huh. now i finally get it.

speaking of IJ, i went to the st. nicks funfair last sat. overall not bad lah, still got some spinning ride and lots of arcade games. can u imagine??? arcade machines at the NEW EXTENSION?? weird leh. cars whizzing abt as u play some fighting game. i tot IJ does not condone violence?? what the-?? haix- i tink new gen is like that one la.. funfair juz everything bring in dun consider values de. whalao. den still got so many small bengs go in the sch leh!! kaos~ i last time oso nvr see so many one lor. hmm. yup. super alot of small bengs. den funni leh no chiobus de. only hiao bohs. sighs. joanne frm my level de.. wah seh.. she bring back one bung. not too sure if she's frm our sch anot la.. cos her fringe kinda cover her eyes. (stupid wind.. suay suay brow the direction i cnt see her eyes.) wah lao. the bung. the bung. cool leh!! den that joanne like very "sud ki" lah, go hand in hand with that bung walk ard. she ming ming zhi dao bring bung will be centre of attraction in girls' sch de. whahaha. but. hmm. got eye candy lah. not bad. she kinda reminded me of the bung shujun n i spotted at causeway point near 77th street. got that kind of "shuai qi". that kind of "seh". wah nice leh. the eyes.. the "yan shen".. of the 77th street bung hor, look abt like Geraldine frm campusSuperstar. but the 77th street bung's hair more style.. sport those really cool hairstyle.. those like got streaks of pattern near the sideburn area de. den hair abit spiked de. those sporty sporty tanned kind la. very cool. whaha. but then agn, i tink i still prefer those thin n slightly fairer ones with a cheeky grin on their faces. heh heh.

woo. realised i ranted on n on abt bungs for so long alr! wah.. cloud u dun salivate till drown the computer when u read this entry hor. whahaha~ k la i go liaos. go prepare b a good IJ girl. shun bian on a lookout for more bungs. this behaviour cannot change one lah, its instilled in the IJ blood alr. whahahahaha!!!! am crazy. shall go now. ciaos~

2006-03-11T09:34:00.000-08:00

horrible crashing sounds were coming from next door. the sound of shattering glass, smashing objects, angry yells and fearful cries.. oh man were they loud. and it is scary, especially when u hear them at 12.30am. it really makes one wonder what unforgivable sin the woman had done to make the man's blood boil to such an extent. ...and.. is the man is going to continue to abuse the woman until she falls into a concussion or sth? ...what if she dies? ..will anyone care? ...will the man even give her a proper burial considering that he didn't even respect her when she was well and alive?? ... such morbid thoughts. it really disgusts me when i see men resorting to violence. especially men hitting women. when couldn't possibly be solved after having a good heart-to-heart talk? Besides, the act of men hitting women somehow violates against certain rules that i couldn't quite place.. and the simple act only sums up as a word--BRUTAL. somehow this conjures an image of the tyrant Emperior Qin.. who is violent and does not show respect for women.. slapping them for mini minor wrongs they had done when a warning would be sufficient. it is plain brutality.. to hear those footsteps coming from next door.. those footsteps of the woman trying desperately to avoid the man's continual chasing and hittings..hearing her cry in pain and anguish when she gets hit.. i wouldn't even want to try and imagine what other sufferings she had endured. it is all i can do to hope and pray that.. pray that the man would stop.. oh please oh please.. do not do things that you will regret.. she is your wife after all.. please.. calm down.. stop throwing things.. cant you see that she's already cowering in fear??? i really do not wish that things would end in a bloody mess.. but this is all i can think of now as i hear those running footsteps and yells and cries.. blood, blood, blood and more blood. please stop!!! (pauses) you know what? i've juz made a decision to avoid anyone with a violent streak. as in those "bao li xian xiang" ppl.. my mum oso heard what happened nxt door.. she juz came over to warn me that i should open my eyes big big dont marry a husband who is violent. wah piang.. so scary lor.. really must see the guy properly before marrying. i dont wanna end up like this.. if (choy) really like that i'd rather divorce. honestly. altho the would be a stigma that comes attached with a divorcee i dont think i will really care, cos safety is really more impt when u come to think of it. i dont wanna becos of family pride den subject myself to such torture lor. wahh... really very scary leh.. i think if i keep thinking abt this i might lose interest in getting married altogether. sighs* i really dunno lah.. i juz pray that she'll be fine, and have a good night's rest. Heaven pls watch over her.. *silent prayer**

weird dreams

2006-02-28T20:13:00.000-08:00

Aiyoh.. i think i really need to subject my brain to more challenging thing alr.. aft emptying out all those info after exams, it has been quite vacant.. and also starting to preoccupy itself with weird thoughts. See, according to Cloud's Rational Thinking Theory, weird thoughts = weird dreams at nite = feeling spooked all over = letting u all read all these weird details in my blog.

In the recent days, I have dreamt of countless weird things. Here at some of the more memorable ones:

Dream 1:

A bespectacled friend of mine went blind suddenly. As she was crying by the hospital bedside, guess what I said to console her? " Hey, like that means no need to wear glasses liao, can be pretty pretty oso can save contact lens cost.. really good leh!" What a thing to say. and guess what. My friend immediately broke into a SMILE and clapped her hands gleefully. HUH?? like that oso can ar??? =_=

Dream 2:

I was having a real bad case of stomachache in school. As in like MEGA stomachache type. So I raised up my hand, excused myself frm my MARKETING class (yes, that woman is my teacher), and chiong to the loo. The tummyache was really bad la, I took a whole 25min to clear. whahaha.. den I stepped out to wash my hand lor.. den my fren was there in the toilet too mah, den cannot be i juz dao her nv even say hi right.. so we make small talk lor.. wah lao eh, sibeh suay ah, that Marketing woman stepped in to check on me leh!! den suay suay saw me talking.. she tot I pon class stay in toilet to talk to my fren leh! Siao de~ i wanna tok i wont choose a more pleasent-smelling place meh. wah piang, no brain leh. She shook her head and wagged her 2nd finger at me wordlessly, an evil grin on her face. Jialat jialat, die liao... dunno what punishment she will give.. as she was walking out of the loo, she turned her head to face me and said "Wait till you receive your debarment letter." Wah seh, pangsai got wrong meh? like that oso kana debarred?? wah den do small business is considered absent isit? arghh~!!! *irritated*

Dream 3:

I think too much abt hamsters liao lah. think until can start dreaming abt them. but very disgusting.. shall not include too much details here.. juz something abt one hamster's eye got one blister and my bro go and peel it. (ok, DONT imagine) den like one hamster squarshed.. den i still can fix it back like plastercine like that haha..one hamster's parts can make into two alive hammies leh! wah i pro sia~ den got one hamster is furless de.. all fur gone.. juz keep staring at me shivering pleading for help. wah, very poor thing leh.. but i dunno how to help.. haiyoh.. den oso ah.. so little cages so many hamsters, must one hamster to one cage or else they fight.. not enuf cages liao.. how how... in the end im like grabbing scrambling hamsters from the ground and putting them into big containers like jugs and vases.. bo pian la.. or else they run here run there how.. aiyah.. sth like that.. den the phone rang and i woke up liao~ what a messy dream.

yupps. that's abt it. i told u theyre STRANGE right. told you so. told u so~ hahaha.. update more some other time bah.. hope u all enjoyed reading abt my dreams~ whahahaha..

updates!!

2006-02-25T10:21:00.000-08:00

wah.. so long nv blog liaos.. been sooo busy with trying to act guai by studying.. alrights now i'll update all of u kks?

hmm.. on vdae.. i finally got my first bouquet of flowers for vdae from my honey darlingg!!! hahaha.. its super super nice.. the colours oso all i like one.. so sweet of u honey.. xie xie ni!! Both of us met at Bugis.. go makan.. den after that go watch movie. den after that go walk walk ard abit lah.. go shopping.. den shun bian act bitchy keep holding up my flowers to show off. Haha who ask some of those girls.. take flower so high high up the chests show off till siao.. i oso haf lor, bigger than your somemore..whahaha feeling evil. but really ah, tink vday is really too hyped up abt flowers lah, saw a girl pouting and teh-ing for flowers frm her bf. wth~ =_= flowers supposed to be he give from his own free will den got meaning de mah, get flowers this way counted meh? haha.. dont really care lah. hmm yah.. den my honeyy got jap lessons liao so pei him go Kovan cos thats where he's having lessons. [rmbs my fren's reaction: why did u ask him to pon his lesson? aiyoh, valentines day leh] hey i very good one lor.. one lesson $50 leh.. if he pon i will feel very ke xi for his money wasted one. hmm.. so we reached the mall.. daerr's fren haven reached yet.. den we exchanged our vday presents there..

dearr gave me a golden accessory complete with crystals, a musical box and chocolates. wah.. i feel like in very roman or victorian times leh.. u know those dukes always like to give those women stuff like these one.. hahaha.. but anyway it was very sweet lah.. thanks deardear!! hmm.. i gave my deardear a gigantic me-to-you bear card, a Billabong waist pouch and chocolates. hehehe.. sweet sweet de.. satisfy his sweet tooth..hahaha..

hmm what else to update leh? oh my poor pet hamster Moschino is ill~!! going to bring it to the vet on monday. sighs. heard its gonna be quite ex but what to do.. bo pian.. i must save it mah.. dont even know if its painful.. cos hamsters cant really communicate.. not even bark like a dog can.. so i duno if it hurts really bad or wad. hmm.. so decided to bring it to the vet lor..juz in case its alr hurting like hell. *heart pain** sayang.. hope u be fine soon okie?

another thing, my dearr's bike was stolen!!! wah seh, he leave it chained at the mrt station overnight for ONE night oso will kana stolen. sai~

my dear friends having a chalet on 13-15mar!! so exciting.. whaha.. i tink we wun sleep de lor.. hahahaha.. tok n play game the whole night.. wah fun fun! cant wait.. hahaha

hmm still got what to update.. orh.. my exam papers.. okok lor.. the most confident one will be PCC lah definately. *winks** the rest dont dare to say liao lah.. just.. wait for results to come den see lor.. what to do.. btw.. my coursework grades are RHRA- B, MER- B, PCC- B, CJP- C. Kns lah~ nxt class got so many A's for CJP.. why our class dun even have one.. their ave mark is B.. our class ave mark is C.. wah lao.. really not fair lor..

im currently in the process of searching for a job.. but wondering how i can plan for it not to clash with me n my dearr's 2nd anniversary, birthday and the chalet.. thinking... thinking...

2006-02-04T09:35:00.000-08:00

cheyy.. the Godwin thing.. it was all a lie lahh.. the psychotic girl lie to him de. wah lie so blatently Godwin still suck up her story like siao. tell her they b best buddies forever. wth! would u even remain frens with someone who had lied to u abt herself being thrown into freezer and being in a coma for 1.5 days??? come on lor.. siao.. still wan to be wad best buddies. aiyahs..i wash my hands off this matter ler.. so boliao.. Godwin he want to believe her trust her all not my problem liao.. I warned him alr.. nth more I can do liao. lucky he not longer my stead liao.. else I sure think he gone case one! haha.. Juz now on phone I told dearr the story my dearr immediately said its all a lie.. whahaha.. see my dearr so smart. :D~ kekeke.. or else how to be my dearr?? XD hmm btw I think the jacket issue shld be resolved liao bahh.. cos we were like toking like normal on phone.. duno lahh.. funny ehh why I always go steady with guys who love to help ppl widd love probs one?? den u know its always gals who tok abt love probs lahh.. so means they will keep toking to diff gals abt their love probs! hais~ siann lah.. dowan to tink so much liaos.. gotta slp now. btw worked today earned $20 whahah thanks ahh fren give me lobang.. hehe.. kk go slp liao.. byeeee!!

2006-02-03T08:30:00.000-08:00

super de a lot of things happened todae.

today got comm skills class. got to class at abt 10.08am. D'Cruz turned ard and announced to the whole class,"wow Jane, at least u aren't THAT late today. glad to see that u can make it." 1st thing of the day enter classrm kana comment like that liao. cannot imagine. -.-

den CJP Tirzah returned our speeches. tot i sure kana nag frm her one.. was bracing myself for it since yest alr.. but nvr leh. miracle sia. whaha. must thank God. :) i got 40marks. scraped thru A. well at least can make up for my stupidd CJP human-interest story lahh.

den as I was going home with Cloud Godwin called me. He sounded so grave and serious it gave me such a shock. He asked if we could meet and talk. something's serious up man. i could sense it, so I agreed to meet him even though I was supposed to go dearr's hse to [ bai nian ] to his mum todae. somemore her bdae todae oso leh!! wah kaos.. this had better b good kae..

met Godwin at the CC. he told me this long sad tale. of how she got thrown into the freezer because of him n everything. of how he wanted so much to b there for her but he couldn't. i was supposed to feel jealous. after all, all these while he had been saying to me that his feelings for me had nv changed. den suddenly he told me he had told her that he liked her. i was supposed to have stood up and shouted at him. was supposed to call him "Liar!" and rant loudly on how he'd deceived me. the normally bitchy spoilt Jane would have done that. BUT NO. i din feel a single teeny tiny TWINGE of jealousy. i even encouraged him to be strong, to stay on for her sake. he sounded really sad that he couldn't b there to protect her frm her parents. and now this happened to her. oh my. i really do hope she stays on strong. let Godwin take care of u. Im sure ur ex bf would want u to b happy too, to find ur own living [ xingfu]. yupps. gave a silent prayer. hope everything's fine with them.

den I rushed to dearr's house lor.. by the time I reached there it was alr 8.50+ pm alr.. so paiseh.. so late liao!! luckily their kfc delivery haven come yet else they'd all be waiting for me to start. haha. wished his mum happie bdae. ya den soon the food came n we started tucking in. aft tt go officially [ bai nian] to his mum, n she gave me a hongbao. wah quite alot inside nehhs. whaha. den time to go home liao. whole journey with dearr quite happie, even say wad im one of his family or wad de liao, den when reached near my hse dwnstairs den tell me actually he saw Adam's jacket on friendster.. den he tot I still like him or dunno wad lah.. cos I buy similar jacket as what Adam was wearing in da picc. wah lao.. pls lor is i buy 1st den see the pic one leh. wad toking him lorr. 1yr 11mths tgt den still like that. wah I nth to say liao lor. say til so serious I tot he wan break or wad. kns~ wah lao dearr u dun jealous lah u jealous for wadd? hais. i really nth to say liao lahhs. really dotts.

shall end here. ciaox ppl~

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